love, you turned my life upside down 360 degrees

the one and only part

love,

i'm writing this to you to get to know you better, as a being and as an integral part of my life.

all my life, i have watched korean drama after korean drama, american shows after american shows, proving to me, that you truly exist. i have known how the characters in the shows parallel to those in real life.

how people desperately try to find you in the eyes of others, in the way their lips come into contact with another's, and yet, to no avail.

when i was younger, i tried to look for you, thinking that you could exist anywhere on this planet.

often times, i would look for you in the faces of my parents and family. i would find you there most of the time, but sometimes, their faces were devoid of any love— especially when they were scolding the notorious me.

hence, i widened my search area.

i went to school and i looked. from my peers to my seniors, i tried to find love but all i got were even more blank faces, filled with nothing but frowns and the creases of their foreheads.

no luck there, i suppose.

and yet, i had cousins around me getting married, having children, basking in the warmth of you. so, determined not to give up in the face of adversity, i continued my relentless search.

in fact, because of my perseverance, i felt i came pretty dang close to finding you, love.

but, i later found out that what i felt wasn't you, it was a budding sense of friendship that often obscures the visions of many, tricking them into thinking that they found you, but it was all an illusion.

i sighed. i often thought to myself, were you really there, love?

soon, as i entered my angsty 13-15 years of age, i grew angry at you. you manipulated people into letting them use your name in vain, only to see them heartbroken and depressed.

it was all because of you.

my search for you had come to an abrupt halt as i no longer trusted that you were going to look for me and pull me out of this dark cave. to be honest, i did not believe you were there anymore and that those korean dramas were just total nonsense.

as i entered my 18s-23s, i watched as my best friend seek comfort in the beds of others, hoping to find you.

time and again, i would have to go to her house to console her, but i also thought to myself, how could you burn her heart like that, love?

how could you?

to get over the multiple heartbreaks, we watched the famous korean dramas, as actors and actresses created the chemistry which is supposedly, you, love. eventually, my best friend began to trust you again, much to my displeasure.

i warned her to stay clear of your path, but she was certain that she was less gullible this time.

and love, i would say, you are the luckiest being in the word.

you have an amazing friend named "time".

with your friend, my best friend was able to heal and find the perfect one for her, and now, they are happily married with 3 kids.

however, i was still living my single pringle life, and of course, i had given up searching for you.

that was, until, i met a boy with brown hair, obsidian eyes which held the galaxy in them, and every time i saw him, my heart fluttered, as if you had flown in on a majestic bird, sweeping me off my feet.

he told me that finding you was not a one man's job, and that a pair of adventurers were needed.

let me tell you, love, he told me various things. he told me that you were worth the wait, and most importantly, that i was worth the wait.

quoting him, "patience is a virtue. And so is love."

he was nothing like the rest of the boys who were under your spell, to break my heart as many times as possible.

and then, the boy grew into a man and finally, i was ready to ask him exactly what you were.

and love, you finally revealed your ace card, after 28 years of me searching for you.

he led me to a mirror, turned me around gently, so i could face you.

~the end~

side note: i got inspiration from somewhere i think but i felt like writing this:) i have not experienced heartbreak but to those who have, this is for you💘💘 

i hope you like it and much thanks to my friend who encouraged me to do this!! if this story is similar to any story, it is purely coincidental cuz this is from my brain