(Listen to the song above while reading ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪)
For some reasons, I leave without any answer. 'Don't cry don't cry don't cry' I say while trying to calm myself, the woman is walking by my side with a little proud smile on her face, I just want to smash that perfect face so that it looks like mine. I enter the elevator and see many people looking at me weirdly, it was 'the straw that broke the camel's back' I can't hold my tears anymore..
I have spent all the years of my life focusing on one goal that is not even mine, I just studied and studied and didn't do anything else to have fun, I avoided most activities I'd have liked to do; sports, art, music.. All these things I always wanted to try out but could not cause of my busy schedules full of work work and of course work. Nobody even loves me, I mean, I'm this nerd girl nobody talks to, my own parents only want me to do what they couldn't when they were younger.. But.. I can't blame anyone, I have been hard on myself, I have neglected my appearance and have never cared about my style, my hair, my face, NOTHING. And now I'm here, after getting kicked out of 'my' dream company, I look up the sky, oh God don't tell me it starts to rain! No no no no no no nooo!! What should I do now? I'm a broken girl who never gave a second to herself, I wasted my whole life for a stupid company that only care about looks. And of course, rain is here to stop my crying. I have no umbrella, I walk looking at my feet, my shoes are not wearable anymore so I take them off. I wipe my red eyes with my already wet fingers, I don't want to go home now, I'll get hated by my parents except if they don't hate me before that. I won't go home now. In the covered place of the bus station, I sit waiting for the bus. I didn't eat today, but I'm not hungry after all what happened. I can't even buy anything to eat cause I have no money now. What should I do?
At this precise moment, I really miss Jaehyun, I usually miss him when I don't feel good. He's the only person who loves me, and the only person I love. The prison where he was forwarded to is in Seoul but I'm scared to go there, cause my mom and dad forbidden me from it, still, I can't realise how hard it is for him to not see anyone. Jiwon, if you really love your brother, you're going to Seoul's jail.
time skip to when you arrive
It's here! I say to myself, crossing the front door of the 'Seodaemun Prison'. After revealing my identity and show my visit permit, I ask to see 'Park Jaehyun' and a man tells me to wait a bit before his arrival. In a little room, called a parlour, I can talk to him privetly for an hour and a half. As I wait, I hear footsteps closer and closer..
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I see him. I look at his eyes which always made me comfortable no matter how stressed I can be. He's here. Tears are immediatly coming out of our eyes, we both really can't believe we meet.
"Jiwon-ah~" he says cheerfully
"You can't know how much I missed you!!"
"So I did! Anyways how's your life going? Did you start working in the 'Kim Company' or not yet?"
"I didn't get taken cause of my apparence.. It's kinda dumb right?"
"I think it's a good thing; it's going to teach you a life lesson, you'll understand it later, I'm sure about this."
"If you say so.. However I don't know what to do."
"And when you don't know what to do, you come to your dear brother, how cute~ It's a good decision but are mom and dad aware of you being here?"
"Obviously not but now that I'm an adult, I guess I can do whatever I want. But I'm still confused about my future.."
"Oh right, for the job thing, you should think about it after with more hindsight. For the moment, just go out and meet new people, make friends, and enjoy your youth because it's not too late yet."
More an hour and a half later
It's my time to leave. Jaehyun told me everything about his daily prison life, shared with me his honest feelings and opinions about it and finished by informing me that he'll get out of this hell in only two months, it's the best thing I've heard today so far. I leave happily, imagining what my new life will look like, but first of all, I have to go back home and face my parents' future disppointment. 'What can they even do?'
I had a very tiring day but it finished better than expected, Jaehyun is better than any psychologist. And now that I'm in the train, I don't want to open any book or study anything, so I just look out of the window, wondering if I should tell my parents that I spend time with my brother.'No, don't.' I deduce after a little analysis of my situation. I'll just say I stayed there to go to the library, sounds good.
