This Sum Fuck Shit (Vento Aureo X GN BLACK reader)

Chapter 1: I need to leave this place.

TW: Suicide, Abusive Parents, Panic Attacks, Emetophobia

'Italics' = Thoughts

"" = Speech

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You were curled up in your bed, the blankets wrapped around you as if they would shield you from all the events that had just occurred a few minutes ago. You placed your hands on your head to try and help ease the throbbing pain, when you withdrew them your eyes widened at the sight of blood.

 So, this is where they draw the line at going too far? 

The banging on your door and the screaming behind it were progressing in getting louder the longer you sat there and cried. Tears made their way down your face and short, laboured breaths left your chapped lips. The cause of your state? 

Your Parents. Your school. Your siblings. Just fucking everything at this point.

Let's start off with your strict, unempathetic, terrible fucking parents. You were born into a family of six, you being the second eldest. In your family, grades are everything. Your parents who only want success to boost their egos treated you like some sort of machine. You studied everyday with no breaks under your parents watchful gazes. All of your subjects were chosen by them, if you were caught doing something creative such as art instead of learning some shit like the quadratic formula you'd be beaten and yelled at, then compared to your siblings who abided by your parents rules like it was God's word. 

Your siblings were snobs and deemed themselves highly better than you, so much better to the point where they've decided to ignore your presence entirely. Of course they'd still call you names from time to time and flash their latest gifts from your parents at you just to let you know that you'd never be on their level.

School? Not much to say about it really. It's shit, you have no real friends, you're doing subjects you don't even like and failing them, and the hustle and bustle of it just makes you want to curl up in the nearest corner and scream. 

A few minutes ago, you were called into the living room. In your dad's hand he held a report card. 'SHIT!' You swore to yourself in your head. Today was results day and you had forgotten. "What the hell is this (name), huh!?" Your dad roared. He was always the loud type. "A C IN MATHS? DO YOU NOT STUDY HUH, WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU DO IN YOUR ROOM ALL DAY THEN!? ARE WE TOO KIND TO YOU?". You could see your siblings snickering and recording you on their phones. 'Those brats' you seethed at them in your head, but you kept your head down and said nothing.

Insult after insult were hurled in your direction.

"YOU'RE SO USELESS!"

"DO YOU NOT CARE ABOUT YOUR FUTURE? YOUR FAMILY?"

"YOUR SIBLINGS ARE DOING GOOD IN SCHOOL YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE!"

Your mum just sat in the corner of the room shaking her head and adding unnecessary side comments about what type of sin had she committed to have a child as bad as you.

 "YOUR ELDER SISTER IS AN ARCHITECT FOR FUCKS SAKE AND WHAT ARE YOU?

ABSOULETLY  N O T H I N G".

You snapped your head up at that. 

Nothing? NOTHING?

"NOTHING? I WORKED MY ASS OFF DAY AND NIGHT FOR A SUBJECT I COULDN'T GIVE TWO FUCKING SHITS ABOUT AND THIS IS THE THANKS I GET? I BARELY SLEPT, I ALMOST COLLASPED WHEN I GOT INTO THE EXAM HALL THAT DAY. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT MY SISTER IS, WHY DON'T YOU CARE ABOUT ME FOR ONCE?" You had found that the words had left your mouth before you could even hold them back. You quickly threw your head back down.