I'm Still Standing

Chapter One

March 19, 2018

"Shut up!" screamed Brian. "Shut up, Shut up, Shut up! I don't want to hear it anymore! This is ridiculous! Being a 'singer' is ridiculous! You're not even good at singing! Why do you insist that this is what you're gonna do! Let's face it, you can't sing properly and you won't go anywhere with your disgusting voice! You need to grow up and get a job! Do something useful for once!"

"I can sing you bastard! This is my dream! This is what I want to do for the rest of my life! I want to be happy! Is my happiness really nothing to you? I thought you loved me!" I shouted back at him.

"I gave up on my dreams a long time ago Cassie! Why? I gave up because I know that what I want to do won't get me anywhere! It won't get me money, it won't buy me a house, and it isn't worth anything!"

His words hit me like a bullet. "It's worth your happiness!"

"I'm not going to live off my happiness for the rest of my life! And to answer your previous question, no, your happiness means nothing to me if it means that you're going to be useless!" he yelled.

"Do you even love me?"

"..."

Tears roll down my face as the silence hurts me more than the words do. He doesn't love me. He did at one point, but now he gave up on me, just like he gave up on his dreams. Being here is just wasting his time and mine. Why stay here when I can just leave.

I ran out of the living room and into our bedroom and quickly packed up all of my belongings. I don't need to stay here. I'll just go to Chelsee's house, she did say I can stay at her place anytime.

Brian walks into our- no his bedroom. There's no use in calling it our bedroom if I'm not gonna live here anymore. "What are you doing?" he asked, even though it was pretty obvious what I was doing. "Leaving, since you clearly don't want me here anymore" I said, glaring at him. "I never said that and you know it." "But you meant it didn't you. Your silence said it all." "Come on let's talk about it" he tried to reason with me. "What's there to talk about?" "You know I didn't mean it", he said trying to convince me, acting like the screaming match we had a few minutes ago never existed. "You meant it, you and I both know you meant it, and there's nothing you can do to make me change my mind about leaving so don't even think about trying to make me stay."

I ran out with my two suitcases and my backpack, slammed the door shut, and started running on the sidewalk with only one thought rushing through my head . Go to Chelsee, she'll understand.