So a lot has past ...Im what,13 now about to be 14. See I'm so caught up in caring for others I almost forgot my own damn age like come on now. So like yea yea you must be thinking oh well so you were ignored growing up. Well your pathetic and totally wrong I had to wait no ...I have yo take care of my brother who's 10 but who has a 5 year old mind. He has a disability but no one in mg family knows exactly what it is ...yet.
So I struggled to help him while getting straight up A's and B's in 7th grade. I mean I'm the type of girl who gets hype even if my grade is an 80 I mean like come on now that's a B and that gets me on honor roll.
But that was when I was 12-13 Im getting good grades but my brother struggles with getting a D or a C and he almost failed 3rd grade. For that Id get yelled at by my dad all the time because somehow he seemed to drill in my head that my brother was my responsibility but it wasn't.
In addition to that my parents have been split for 1-2years. I don't know I seem to loose track but I know its been 2 Christmas's at least. So around that time my mom went to an apartment. Which only had one room...we were still figuring out the costody situation. But like every separated parents they had us 50-50.dad:Friday,Saturday, Sunday,and Monday morning... Mom:Monday after school thru Friday but dad gets us every other thursday ...confused yet? That's only they beginning.
So my mom keeps saying that my dad threw her out the house and put all her shit in boxes and changed all the locks. That's partially true but he didn't kick her out.so before the 50-50 costody my mom took all my clothes from my dads house and brung them to the apartment.My dad was on his first girlfriend at the time with her 3 kids 2 has autism and one was just a bitch...but I'll get to that part later.
All this time with my mom I've been sleeping on a gotdam sofa bed from IKEA and god so help me!!!!I had to share it with my brother because the apartment was only a one room. (Let me just remind you I live in philly) this was on bustleton. How did I tend to babysit my brother and get good grades because as you may know high schools look at 7th grade. I would have head aches and try not to cry all the time because you know what I was weak. I had no privacy I had nothing to myself. Never thought of suiside or how ever the fuck you spell it ...I never thought about it not once. Quite frankly you know why because I'm better that and that would make me a failure and a disappointment.
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