He Was Unexpected

Chapter Four

Do I Stay, or Do I Go?:

Nothing felt real. I loved him. Loved.

"Ailee, I messed up." I can tell he had been crying, "I, I should not have treated you that way, and I am so sorry. I don't want to lose you. I know there is no excuse, but I will spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you. I swear it."

I open my mouth, and nothing comes out. He said everything I have been waiting for him to say. Everything I wanted to hear, but he does this every time. I want to believe he changed, I want to believe that he won't hurt me again. I just don't. I can't.

"Ailee, please. I will give you everything you want. Don't leave me. I can't lose you. Im just so messed up." He grabs my hands, and starts crying. I nod my head, I couldn't stand seeing him hurt. He pulls me into a hug, and kisses me. My mind goes a million places besides him. I place my hands on his upper back and hold him.

I wanted to hold it together, but I couldn't even stand being in his arms right this minute. The first tear fell down my cheek, and I felt like I was being suffocated. I step back, and push him back from me. Just so I can get a clear head, and not be so intoxicated by his scent. The scent I thought was my safe haven.

"You don't get to do this." I sob through my words, and it feels harder to even speak. "I was nothing but loyal to you. I didn't go out, I never went anywhere without you. I held your pathetic ego like a baby!" From the corner of my eye I see that Em was standing on my patio with the door cracked. "I can't trust you again, and not because there was anyone else on your side. I can't trust you because you hurt me in all the worst ways! I can't breathe when I'm around you!"

"I never did anything to you! I let you have friends, you always chose friends over me!" He screams and comes closer to me. I flinch and step back. "You just wanted everyone elses attention other than your boyfriends because you're a fucking whore!"

My heart feels like it got shot, but I can't let him win. "How was I a whore!" I yell back in disgust. "How was I a whore, I never went out!"

"The way you dress, and post, you really showed me your true colors!" He shoves me back, and Em steps onto the grass. I go to shove him, and I see Ethans stupid red car pull in.

"Oh, is that your little boyfriend coming to your rescue?" I go to lunge at him, but Ethans arms wrap around my waist and puts me behind him. He hands me to Em who is now right behind the situation. I felt his his breathing heavy with anger as he gave me away.

"It must feel like a real ego boost beating down a woman for your own insecurities." He mocks him, and Ian tries to lunge at him for it. Ethan dodges it, and looks down at him on the floor. "Lookin like real man now." He instigates. I don't know if he can fight, so I just yell out. "Stop, just leave!" I say, and Ian gets up while staring at Ethan the entire time.

"Come get your man then, you little whore." He says to me. I couldn't even tell you what happened next. I'm not sure if it was meant to be a punch or a full on tackle. I blinked and Ethan was on top of Ian. I gasped, and went to shove Ethan off of Ian but he just backed off. Ian knocks me over as he gets up, and he spits on the ground in front of me.

"Not even fucking worth fighting over." He laughs as he walks to his car, and speeds out kicking up rocks behind him. I shield my face, and Em and Ethan help me up.

"I didn't even realize." Em started to say as she looks at me with concern written all over her face.

I just shake my head, and put my hair behind my ears. "Its fine, go enjoy the party ill be right in. Can you make up some shots?" I ask her. Em nods, and walks in while looking back at us. As soon as the door shuts, I fall to my knees and squeeze my eyes shut as it all hits me. She really didn't know. I never told her it all because I didn't even know half of what he was doing was not okay. Ethan falls right next to me, and pulls me into his arms.