Wrong Way (ranboo x reader)

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September 22nd, 2019 - Sunday - 8:43 PM

I turn around and see Ranboo still behind me. I keep running. I don't think we will ever get to run on the beach together like this ever again. The sunset is perfect. The water is perfect. He is perfect. Everything is perfect.

He catches up to me and hugs me. He spins me around and sets me down. Plants a kiss on my cheek and I open my eyes. His face is so beautiful, I am so grateful to be with him.

We both lay down on the sand and start to stargaze as the stars come out. We keep our hands interlocked to know that we both are still there. The stars are amazing. I need to learn the star patterns one day.

My phone stars ringing and I take it out of my back pocket. I dust the sand off of it and see that it's a call from Tommy. I show Ranboo and get up really quickly and answer the call. "Hey Y/n, where are you? I need to talk to you." I start to get worried and say "Oh uh I'm with Ranboo, everything ok?" I can hear Tommy sigh through the phone and I stay quiet. He speaks through the awkward silence "Can you come to my house later tonight? Like alone?" I think for a second and say "Yeah, of course, I'll be there in an hour or something. I'll just call or text you when I'm almost there, ok?" I can hear his smile through the phone when he says "Ok" back.

I end the call and walk back over to Ranboo. He gets up and says "Ready to go?" I smile and nod. When we get in the car, I tell him about the call "So is it ok if I go to Tommy's house for the night?" Ranboo looks at me weird and says "You don't have to ask, he's your best friend, of course you're allowed to go." I smile and kiss him on the cheek as he continues to drive.

About 40 minutes later, we arrive at Tubbo's house. Ranboo gets out and I get out to hug him goodbye. I climb into the drivers seat and start the navigation for Tommy's house and text him that I'm at Tubbo's and will be there soon.

On the drive there, I start thinking about what he wanted to talk to me about, and why he wanted me to come over to talk about it. Getting lost in thought, I don't even realize that I arrived at Tommy's house. I text him to tell him I'm here and I see the front door open right away.

I get out of the car and hug him tightly. I haven't seen him in a while.

He hugs back tightly, I think he missed me too.

He lets me in and I walk up to his living room with him. Since it's night, we have to stay quiet. I open my mouth to speak, but Tommy does before me "Sorry for asking you to come over on a late notice. I just wanted to talk about something." I smile and say "Don't worry about it, you're my best friend and I will always make time to see you."

He frowns.

He continues to speak, but his voice is shaky and he looks like he's on the verge of tears "Ever since you started dating Ranboo, I felt like we haven't been able to hang out or even call. You completely ghosted me for weeks. I really miss you, but I felt like you just abandoned me when you got together." Now the tears are streaming down his face. I try to hug him but he pulls away "Y/n, I really love you, but you can't just drop me for someone else just like that. I've been in so much pain these past few days and you never bothered to check in. I tried calling and texting you so many times, but you never answered. Especially when I really needed you."

Now the tears are streaming down my face. I feel horrible. I completely forgot about Tommy, I was just so invested in my first love, that I forgot about the person that is the reason I even met my first love.

I speak through sobs "I'm so sorry Tommy. I had no idea. This is no excuse, but he is my first ever love and I didn't even realize that I was ignoring you. I was just so invested in him, that I never took the time. I am so sorry, and you don't need to accept my apology any time soon. But I am here for you and I will always be here for you. I am free tomorrow after school. Maybe we can get lunch together." Tommy frowns and says "Y/n, I need time to think. I love you, but I just need to see what I need and need to focus on myself. I will see you tomorrow at school."

I get up from the couch and leave. The warm tears still streaming down my face. I go to dial Ranboo, but I don't want him to feel bad for something I did. I can't believe I caused this much pain to Tommy.

I turn on the car to drive, but I can barley see through my watery eyes. I pull my hand off the wheel to wipe my face, but the tears keep coming back. It's a never ending waterfall.

I step on the gas because I just want to be home. I just want to get home and be in my bed. I just want to hug my mom and dad and tell them everything. I need them right now.

I pull into the driveway and run up the stairs to the front door. I reach for my keys in my purse and pull them out. My whole face soaked, I find the keyhole and open the door. I run inside and throw my purse beside my bed and faceplant into the pillows.

TW!! (Self-harm! I will tell you when the part is over, so feel free to skip this. Please stay safe <3)

Why am I like this. Maybe dating Ranboo was a horrible idea. I am the reason Tommy is in so much pain. Why am I like this. Why why why.

I go to my bathroom to try to take of the makeup that is leftover on my face. While wiping it down, I see my shaver out of the corner of my eye. Maybe I deserve pain. I deserve so much pain for what I did to Tommy. He deserves so much better.

I reach for the razor and start cutting. The fresh blood making it's way down my arm as I cut marks along my arm. It stings so much, but I deserve this. I am the reason Tommy is in pain. I deserve this pain.

TW OVER!!!

I open my phone and text Ranboo. I slowly type on the screen that is wet from my tears. I type out: I'm sorry, but I can't do this relationship anymore. I love you so much.

I put my phone down and lay my head back on the bathroom wall. What have I become.

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Monday - 3 PM

I wake up to the sound of a heart monitor beeping. Someone please shut it up. It's so loud. I just want to sleep. I want to sleep. I want to sleep. I want to sleep.

I can't fall back asleep, so I open my eyes and see that I'm in a hospital bed with bandages all around my arms and wrists. What happened. I try to get out of the bed, but I feel light headed. I reach for my phone, but can't find it anywhere. Why am I here?

I see a nurse walk into the room and say "Good morning. How are you feeling?" I open my mouth to speak, but no words come out. She can tell that if I speak, I will just start sobbing. So she doesn't pry. She tells me that my phone is in the drawer and I can have it after someone comes in and speaks to me. I nod and wait.

I wait and wait.

Time seems to be slower than usual.

I wait and wait.

What's up with the time today.

I hear a knock on the door and someone walks in. It's a doctor. They sit down on the chair next to me and don't say anything. We sit in silence for a couple of minutes as they observe my awkwardness.

The doctor then starts speaking "Y/n, what's your favorite ice cream?" What question is that. I ignore the question "Why am I here. I just want to go home and see my mom and dad. I haven't seen them in so long." He sighs and says "Y/n, do you know who found you on your bathroom floor? This man named Ranboo. He told me that you broke up with him out of nowhere but still said I love you. He also told me that you recently went to a friends house, and before you went you seemed perfectly fine." I nod and turn to face the wall. I don't want to talk about what happened last night.

He notices I don't want to talk and walks out of the room. But before he leaves, he hands me my phone. I see many missed calls and messages from Ranboo and Tubbo.

I turn on my music and close my eyes.  I just want to go back to sleep.

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Hey ppl, i'm very sorry for this chapter, but it goes with the storyline. If you ever need someone to talk to, my messages are always open <333 please eat something and drink water, your body needs it!!

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