ok... I told you guys I will be updating some time this week, but change of plans.. I might be updating next month, well because my depression came back.... because well everything changed, my friends had been more distant and when I go out of the group, I see if they are worried but no!!! I think they didn't even notice I was gone!! ugh.. life is fucking hell for me right now.... I even starved... STARVED!! WHAT KIND OF FRIENDS LETS A FRIEND STARVE!!! TO MAKE EVERYRHING WORST THEY ARE MY BEST FRIENDS!! UGH....
on the brighter side, I'm already 14!! I turned 14 last Sunday.... and when I invited my 'friends' to the celebration, they didn't go.. NOT EVEN 1!! I waited for 2 hours!! 2 FUCKING HOURS AND THEY DIDNT EVEN TEXT OR CALL THAT THEY WONT BE ABLE TO COME AND THEIR EXCUSES WERE BULLSHIT!! GOD WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO MY LIFE??!! WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS!!?? I might as well end it......
