Sweet Blaze of Sunset

Prologue

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Rage

I think I see red right now. Anger dominates upon me. Can't the company stand when no one is in charge? I'm sure my older brother will come back in time. It's not like it will go bankrupt anytime soon. My heart aches pain, my older brother worked so hard for it and now that he has only been gone for a few months, the elders wants another replacement for the company.

That's bullsh*t I think.

I have my father, uncles, cousins and many acquaintances who I know that will help to handle the company while my brother is away. Gusto kong ilabas lahat ng galit na kinikimkim ko ngayun.

"¿Ahora?" Right now?  Tinignan ko siya ng mariin sa mata. Alam kong galit ang makikita sa mukha ko ngayun pero wala na akong pakialam.

"sí señorita." Nakayuko na siya ngayun habang sinasabi ang mga huling kataga na kaniyang sasabihin. "Acabamos de recibir la llamada de la mansión de su abuelo hace un rato." We just receive the call from your grandfather's mansion a while ago.

"Escuché suficiente. Vuelve a lo que estabas haciendo." I heard enough. Go back to what you were doing. Agad akong tumayo para pumunta sa balkonahe ng sariling silid. Para akong nakukulangan ng hangin sa loob dahil sa kapos ng hininga. Lalo lang lumala ang inis ko nang marinig pa ang katagang iyon.

"Señora mía, todavía tiene unas horas para preparar el—-." My lady, you still have few hours to prepare the—-. Binalingan ko siya sa naiinis na paraan, tss what a waste of time. Agad kong tinuro sa kanya ang pintuan ng kwarto palabas.

"You still have 3seconds to get out of the room without getting fired from work." Can this get any worse? That woman is getting on my nerves since I came back here. Parang siyang nabalisa sa kinatatayuan niya ngayon. Dali-dali siyang yumuko at umalis.

Spain, here in spain is supposed to be my home but it didn't feel like one to me now.

Napaupo nalang ako sa sofa malapit sa kinatatayuan ko. Tinatanaw nalang ang balkonahe. The sky is getting darker. The setting sun is also slowly disappearing. Replaced by the night sky. I can already feel the cold air coming into the room.

I sighed. So they already made their decisions. Kung pinapapunta kaming lahat dun alam ko nang nagyun  nila sasabihin ang gusto nilang mangyari. I know they will gonna talk about it over dinner. How cruel. My brother did a lot for the company, even though for his own life. Marami siyang nagawang mabuti sa angkan na ito pero isang  mali niya lang nagawa na hindi nila matanggap, papalitan na siya agad na para bang may malaking kasalanan siyang nagawa. Pero hinding-hindi ko naisip na mali ang ginawa niya. It's only right for all the things that he did.

But I should know better in this field. This is the life. This is the world of business. And I hate that our grandfather thinks that family is also some business. But I guess life never seems to be the way we want it, but we lived in the best way we can. There is no perfect life but we can fill it with perfect moments. Sometimes you have to accept the fact that certain things will never go back to how they used to be.

"Your sad again." Napatayo ako ng marinig ang boses niya, agad na inayos ang sarili bago siya hinarap. The little boy is in front of me. Sadness is also visible in his eyes, with a messy hair probably just woke up from sleep. It hurts me more seeing him sad.

"Of course not. Baby come here." Gusto ko nalang maiyak ng niyakap niya ako. I hug him tight like I always do. When I am with him the tiredness I feel is relieved. Hinalikan ko siya sa noo bago binitawan.

"Did you had fun with your cousins? Are you already tired?" Hindi ako nakasama sa kaniya kanina dahil sa mga projects na kailangang tapusin. My hectic days in work is also adding to my problems. Lumuhod ako para magkapantay kami nang sa ganun ay mas matitigan ko siya ng maayos.
"Mommy is sorry for not coming with you today."