"Let's break up," Minah spoke out of nowhere. I turned to the side and look at her with disbelieving eyes. Heart dropping right that single moment. Taken by surprise by the words that spoke out of her mouth. The three words that never crossed my mind until now.
"No... I mean.. W-why all of sudden?" Not being able to comprehend what was happening.
"We were doing so well together, we were both so happy with one another.. why do you want to break up now?" Pleading for answers to come out.
Still not facing me, Minah said, "That's what you thought- that's what you saw in your eyes but not for me. I tried to keep a good look in front of you, still not wanting to hurt your feelings, but I can't keep pretending anymore. I just can't keep faking it anymore."
A moment of silence passed by still not understanding what she was telling me.
"I lost feelings Hyunjin. People lose feelings along the way of a relationship. It's normal for someone. I kept searching for a spark that was still left somewhere in my heart but.. T-there just isn't one anymore." Finally turning her gaze at me. Tears coming down from her eyes, rolling down to her cheeks.
"People don't lose feelings just like that Minah. Y-you've told me you loved me... People who truly love one another don't lose feelings. They continue loving each other till the very end.. we're those just lies that you told me?" Still looking at her, heart pace fasting, trembling.
"THEY WEREN'T LIES HWANG, I JUST-" she suddenly stops talking.
Minah finally gets up from the bench. "Let's just end it here.. please.." she starts to walk. I grabbed her hand from behind, stopping her from continuing to walk away from me. Pulling her close into my embrace, not wanting to let go of her.
"Please Minah- don't this to me. Don't stop looking in that heart. I- I just know somewhere- just somewhere there, are still some feelings towards me." Turning her around making her face towards me. My hands still holding onto both of her shoulders, "We can make this work out, you just have to keep looking a little further, hm?" Making eye contact with her.
"Minah... I-I still love you.."
She grabs both my arms, slowly placing them back to my sides. "I'm sorry Hyunjin, I made it clear to what I said. I don't think I have to repeat myself again."
"Please don't contact me after this. I'm sorry this was such a harsh way to ask you something but I just couldn't any other way. I hope one day you can forgive me.."
"Goodbye Hyunjin, thank you for all the moments that you shared with me."
And just like that she turns around and walks away leaving me with a shattered heart.
"Minah!.. Minah!.." Screaming out her name hoping that she'll turn around and come to me...
she didn't.
I dropped to my knees, clutching my shirt, my heart racing faster than ever. tears pouring down, crying out loud.
Why.. why did she had to lose those feelings. Why couldn't I do something about it? Must I have not loved her enough to make her feel loved? I could've made her regain those feelings back if she only gave me a chan- or could I?
I started overthinking in many ways how this could have been all my fault.
Bringing my knees close to my chest, still laying on the hard cement floor, I put my head down to my knees and continued crying.
Left there all alone with a broken heart.
