So uh.
Yeah.
I
Shouldn't be upset
I really shouldn't
But I'm just
Jealous
Even if he came to look at me...well us dancing afterwards, he seemed so nice and stuff to the new guy
He's on duty today
It's just
Unfair
The one day I'm not on duty he comes here and
Ugh
Whatever.
It's just a stupid boy i like.
He's too young anyways.
And judging by the way he normally looks at me i know what he thinks of me
Why am i feeling like shit today
I'm really
At my lowest today
I just
I want to go
Somewhere
Home, aka right here, isn't where i want to be
I want to go to my dad
I want to change
I look like a fucking slut
I'm so desperate and for what? Right, nothing.
God i hate it here
I hate every little fucking thing.
I'm so close to quitting my job and just
Becoming...idk
A full on prostitute
That's gonna bring me further than running after a boy I'll never have a chance with
He probably looked at buddy anyways
So it's
Ugh
I just wanna
I want to dissapear
I'll just
Get something
Something strong
I'll drink till it all comes out again and I'm an empty husk of a human being
God i sound so edgy
I just
Ugh
I should just
Dye my hair
Remove my Piercings
And just be normal
Who would ever fucking love someone that looks like me
Oh well
I'll just
Keep playing games
Might do some karaoke,,,
I'll just sing Agnes and..i understand.. and like 3 other songs like i usually do
I'm pretty
Not bad at them
So i guess that's something to do
I'll keep the fucking arcade open all night today
I'll scream as loud as i fucking wan to and i don't give a shit about any neighbors.
-Kent.
