Over looked Love

heartless-heartbreak

It was the year twenty-nineteen. The air was a mix of summer endings and fall leaves. I was in a realtionship with a boy named Alec who I thought was "the one". I was a dumb seventh-grader, atleast that's my exuse. My boyfriend was a 5'8 bigger built boy with straight blonde hair. He wasn't your average dream boy, but i accepted that and learned to what I thought was love him.
A few days until the new school year, I saw him starting to look at my bestfriend, Arya a differant way than he did before. Now this was expected, all three out of the four people in my friend group all had the same classes all day long.Also they have been friends since kindergarten so I thought nothing of it. Just a few close friends, right? Well my friends and I are not what you would call the most "popular" group of people. But everyone had there little clicks and mine just happened to be with the "class clown" which means that they were very obnoxious and loud, but during recess we had options to don things like stay inside the libary, or have a study hall or go outside. My group would stay inside and make jokes, and be the obnoxious teens that they were in the libary. Which wasn't a good look for us if I'm being honest. Well a couple weeks before November started I really wanted to kiss him. But me being the scared, ackward eigth-grader so I never did. A couple days before I had been talking to my couisn April for a bit, and had just ended a realtionship with her boyfriend Kalen. Kalen and I got to become really close friends in the time that April and him were dating.
By this time Halloween rolls around and I'm starting to see my bestfriend and boyfriend get even closer. Alec and I would always fight about how I thought Alec was starting to like Arya and I finally had enough and told Arya. " I fully support you no matter what. But if you do decide to end it with him, just make sure it's what you want to do." She replyed back. I finally got enough currage and told him that we should end it. I then enjoyed the rest of my Halloween night trick-or-treating with my friends.
The next morning I woke up with a horrible twist in my stomach. I thought I was just hungry and needed food, but all I had felt was regret. I had texted April to tell her what I had done. She told me that maybe it was for the best and to not bring myself down about it. I replyed " I just needed to move on and that I shouldn't be crying over a boy who is not crying over me!" I was still down a bit so I texted the only person who knew what I was going through and he replyed back. First it was just snapping, and then it turned into talking about a football game. His family was all for the Minnesota, Vikings and I liked the Wisconsin, Packers. We were fighting until the game was over. I walked back to my room and started to fall for him. I felt so bad. Why did i fall for April's ex, she was going to pelt my head on her wall. I was desperately afraid but I wanted him to my my boyfriend and that's what he said he wanted.
We started talking on secret for around four days. One day I was sitting in my kitchen and we were snapping like usual but he said something, and i quickly lost feelings for him. It was way too early and I didn't feel as if he ment it. So i ended it on the spot right there. I started to hear foot steps up the stairs a couplr minutes later, it was my mom. She looked so angry like I was going to be grounded until I was dead. She had told me that she found out about the secret "realtionship" and that it needed to stop because I was hurting Apirl. I had told her that I ended it because it was wrong.
But in the long run I still had some existing feelings for Alec, so him and I started dating again and he cut off contact to Arya. Life was good! or so i thought.