Komahina Agnst.

Jealousy

Hey, I'm Nagito Komeada. I've had a crush on my roommate [best friend], Hajime Hinata, for a long time. He was a tall boy with brunette hair and green-ish eyes. I've always had so much hope in him no matter what.. I could never leave him. I want to spend the rest of my life with him, so today is the day, I confess my feelings. I swallowed all the fear I had and picked up the phone. I was shaking while dialing his number. I froze for a bit before finally calling him. "What if he rejects me?" I kept thinking to myself. After a while of thinking, I did it. I tapped the green button that would soon decide if we become lovers or if we just fall apart completely. *Phone Ringing*. I stared at the phone. I had butterflys in my stomach. Then it stopped ringing. He didn't answer. "Hah..its not a big deal! I can just call again..!" I told myself. I called again. It stopped ringing. But this time, he picked up. "Oh hey Nagito!" Hajime said. "Oh! Hello Hajime!" I greeted him. "If you don't mind, I need to tell you something important." I said. "Well..Sorry can it wait? I'm in the middle of getting ready for something important." He replied "Oh..heh..sure it can wait, I can tell you later!" "but what are you getting ready for?" I asked. "You won't believe it!" He said. "I'm going on a date with Chiaki!! I've had a crush on her for so long and asked her out!!" He said sounding happy. I froze with my jaw dropped. My eyes were opened wide. I felt like I just got stabbed, I was heart broken. I hung up and didn't say anything. "GOD DAMN IT" I yelled. I burried my face in a pillow and my eyes started to water. "Chiaki." "It's always Chiaki." Tears fell down my face and I started sobbing. "ITS ALWAYS FUCKING CHIAKI." I yelled into my pillow.  "I WAS A IDIOT THINKING HE WOULD LOVE SUCH SCUM LIKE ME!" I yelled to myself. I was a dumbass for thinking anyone would ever love me. I mean, just look at me. I'm useless. I looked up at my phone and realized it was blowing up with notifications. I grabbed the phone and realized they were from Hajime. "Hey? Nagito?" "You hung up on me, are you ok?" "Nagito!?" "Did I do something wrong?" "NAGITO. " "You never hang up on me without saying bye, this isn't like you!" "Nagito I have to go, I need to pick up Chiaki." "I will come home soon" All of these were messages from Hajime. He cared about me but, I was still heartbroken. Honestly,  what did I expect him to do?, he would never love me that way. He was so amazing but I was trash. I was just taking up space in his life. I got up and looked at myself in the mirror. "Wow, I really am disappointing. " I thought to myself.  I went to go lay down again and I tried to forget about everything, but I couldn't. Was I overreacting..? Am I just...obsessed!? I fell asleep with tears in my eyes. 

The next morning, I woke up. I still didn't forget about the other day. I didn't want to get up. I stared at the ceiling for a good 5 minutes and then got up. I didn't feel like changing or eating. I went downstairs and guess who I saw? Hajime and Chiaki. "Morning, Nagito! Are you ok? You don't seem alright" Hajime asked. "Oh, heh..yeah I'm fine." I replied. Then I looked at Chiaki and whispered to Hajime, "Why is she here?" "Oh! I wanted to bring her over since her and I are officially dating." He answered. I froze again. "Officially...dating?!?!" I thought to myself. I ran down the stairs in a hurry and went outside. I couldn't handle this. I COULDN'T HANDLE THIS AT ALL!  I started running further. I kept running to the point I didn't notice the train.

I WILL CONTINUE THIS TOMORROW, BY LUVS <3. Follow my Tiktok: kfc..korekiyo