let me look into your thoughts//bucky Barnes

Chapter 1

I was going to my room when Tony approached me. >>hey, We get a new avenger he comes right on please go to the living room <<I nodded and opened my room door to get a jacket.

When I arrived in the living room everyone was already gathered. I sat down on the couch next to my best friend Sam. >>Sam Who is the new one? <<. Sam turns his head to me and hesitates briefly >>did you heard about the winter soldier<<. My eyes widened. Then the door opened and Steve came in behind him stood a muscular men. Thats.. That is the.. Winter soldier. Everyone went to him and greeted him but I stayed seated. 

I could see from his gaze that he is not well but I wanted to know more. I wanted to know what was going on in his head. I focused on his thoughts but it was hard to get in there. It took a short time but I was in it I could read his mind, his past. >>what is she doing Steve? <<Bucky looks over at Steve and then back at me. <<bucky she reads your mind but fuck she can feel it<<. The winter soldier runs towards me and tries to get me out of his thoughts. He shakes my shoulders but there was no reaction from me.

*In his thoughts*

Wow is this World War 2 and is this Steve?
They were standing on a train. suddenly everything got dark. Small parts of individual memories appeared.

*Bucky fell from the train into a ravine*

*Strangers drag him through the snow*

*Shoulder surgery, metal arm*
Suddenly I felt a pain that could kill you. I cried out several times!

*Supersoldier serum*
Again I feel a pain that runs through my body.

Everything is black again

*There was a family sitting on the floor. 2 small children who cried just like the parents. In front of them stood the Winter Soldier and aimed a gun at the family.*

*Shot, shot, shot, shot*
The family lies dead on the ground in front of him and he turned around and left.

*Bucky is now sitting on a large chair with many devices. His hands were tied to the chair. He breathed heavily a device went to his head. He cried out in pain and I also felt the strong pain.*

*back to reality*

Bucky held me in his arms and I bent over in pain, I screamed and some tears flowed down my cheeks.

I looked at him. >>james.. Wha-what happened to you? <<. He let go of me and only looked at his hands. >>Y/n I'm so sorry. I'm sorry you had to feel this<<. He got up and left the room without turning around again. Sam came to me and asked if I was fine. I nodded and got up to walk towards the terrace where I met the Winter Soldier. He leaned against the railing of the terrace and looked down at the large meadow. I stood next to him and also looked down. No one said anything until I interrupted the silence. >>James lis-<< He interrupted me. >>Call me Bucky<<. I nodded. >>listen Bucky I'm so sorry for what you had to go through. No one should have to experience such a thing. Have you ever talked to someone about it? <<
He shakes his head no. >>okay If you need someone to talk to or just to listen to, my room is next to your come over<<. He nodded.

*in the night*

I put on a thong and an oversiced t-shirt and lay down in my bed. I took one of my books I love to read it helps me get out. But music helps me even more I don't know what I would do without music. I took my phone and headphones and turned on my favorite songs. I turned off the light and closed my eyes shortly after I had fallen asleep.

>>Ahhhhhh! NOOO! STOP! PLEASE STOP! I didn't do anything! PLEASE<<

I opened my eyes. Was that a dream? But then I heard it again. The screams. I went to the hallway to see where the sounds were coming from. Suddenly, someone put his hand on my shoulder. I reacted immediately and pulled the person to the ground. It was Steve.
>>Cap? Wtf what's going here?? <<He got up and explained to me that Bucky has nightmares from his time at hydra. >>y/n I have to go to him<<. He was about to pass me when I grabbed him by his wrist. >>Steve let me look after him<<. He hesitates briefly but then nods. I quickly went to bucky's room and closed the door behind me. I ran to his bed and sat down at the edge. Bucky beat around and screamed again and again. I shook his shoulders so that he woke up. He opened his eyes and looked straight into mine. But this time the  blue in his eyes was different I didn't see any emotions in it. The next moment he grabbed me by my throat with his metal hand. I lay beneath him and tried to free myself. I tried to gasp for air but it didn't work...