About 5 hours later including traffic. I get a hotel room in Upstate New York, I was tired to drive to New York, New York. I get in the hotel lobby paying for my parking and hotel room. Natalie waves hi to the front desk lady.
"Hi!" She says waving to her.
"Hello love! What's your name?"
She didn't know what she was saying, she looks up at me.
"Natalie" I say filling in.
"Nawawie!" She says giggling.
"What a beautiful name" she says smiling.
I smile at the lady and she looks at me in a flirty way but then realizing I was covered in blood. .
"Don't worry, it's just a wound, I'm alright"
"Do you need a ambulance?"
"Nah, I'm alright, haven't changed yet"
She winks at me handing me my hotel card. I wave goodnight.
"Bye bye!" Nat says waving goodbye.
The lady waves back winking at me. I make a uninterested face and carry Natalie to our room. Surprisingly, it was actually decent. I get in the hotel room and it was just littered with papers and disgusting graffiti of slurs. I cover Natalie's eyes and just go back to the car.
"Baby, we're just gonna sleep in here tonight alright? We'll go back in there tomorrow and get ready for our day, we'll maybe get ice cream!" I say smiling.
She lights up clapping and making happy noises. I laugh and kiss her head.
"Alright baby, do you want dada to sleep in the back with you or are you alright without me?"
"I okie dada, wai dada go away🥺?"
"No no baby, just in the front seat"
"Oh okie, I okie dada"
I nod and smile at her, I give her Chris's favorite stuffed animal and my jacket since I didn't have time to get e v e r y t h i n g out of the apartment that belonged to Chris. He didn't have much since we just got out of college about 2 years ago or less so.
She smiled hugging the stuffed animal and fell asleep quick. I made sure she fell asleep so she wasn't awake while I was asleep and she did anything bad. I lock the door and stayed awake for a while cause we all know what happened when I was asleep.
I cried silently looking at photos of me and Chris. My phone kept blowing up from Chris's parents, oh god, it's all my fault. I could've saved him, I just could've but it didn't go well. I tried at least, at least I saved his legacy. It wasn't just Chris's parents, my foster parents, my friends, everyone. It was too nuch so I just shut it off and started fresh. A fresh life for me, to focus on my stepdaughter, but I had to tell Chris's parents, I turn my phone on again and make a phone call to his parents. They're panicking and confused, his mother was crying and Zach was in distress.
I step outside the car for a moment so I didn't wake Natalie up.
"EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED IN A MATTER OF 48 HOURS! THIS INSTANT!"
I let them yell at me til they calmed down.
"I was asleep with Natalie on the couch meanwhile Chris was showering. I was resting from my injury, and kept Natalie safe. I don't know what happened but she started crying very very loudly almost screaming making me startled and I woke up. I woke up to the front door being opened and a group of men surrounded by Chris and I took Natalie not knowing what the situation was. They were threatening him and I don't know why, so I dropped Natalie to the front porch dumpster to block any noise or shots that could've hit her. Then I of course used my protection gun and shot almost all the men taking Chris behind me to protect him from those men and I dodged a bullet making it accidentally hitting Chris in the chest. Trust me, I tried to save him, but it didn't work. So I took Natalie in my arms along with Chris taking him to the ER and they took care of him. I took almost all the stuff for Natalie and Chris as keepsakes and my stuff and headed out to New York, I'm keeping your granddaughter safe and moving back home" I say calmly.
They both gasped and his mother just cried to me.
"I'm very sorry, I tried to save him as best as I could" I say to them.
There was silence for a while, I cried silently remembering what happened.
"Baby, I know you tried you're best, I'm proud of you and thank you for trying. I know it'll be hard, and I am not angry at you for you trying to save our son. Please, get those son of a bitches and save our granddaughter at all costs." She says seriously.
"You've got my word, Miss Pacheco, I love you"
"I love you more baby boy" she says softly.
"Don't cry my baby boy, thank you" she say adding on.
I cry out to them loudly hitting my head and body wounds. I cried loudly calling for Chris.
"CHRIS, IM SORRY CHRIS, I'M SO FUCKING SORRY" I say yelling in pain.
Miss Pacheco tries to hold in her tears, Zach had left. He left her.. he left her thinking it was her fault to be with me. She cries loudly in her home with me saying he left her. I felt so bad to leave her. I couldn't contain myself anymore, my nails grew and I scratched my skin open crying in pain.. good god. I wrapped my wounds and kissed the phone.
"Miss Pacheco"
"Yes baby boy" she says whimpering.
"Come to New York City at 11am tomorrow, I'll pay you for your ticket and I'll meet you tomorrow."
"Alright baby boy, goodnight and see you tomorrow"
"Goodnight, love you"
"Love you too baby" she says hanging up.
I hang up and break my phone. I stomp and break it as much as I could. I head back in the car and look at my bandages, they were filled with blood. I fall asleep fast and that's where I left off.
I just wanna make things clear. My name is Sammy Ramirez, I've been with Chris since freshman year, he would've been 20 and I'm 21. That first chapter was my first date with Chris I lived with my foster parents Linda and William
Lockwertan. My story is all screwed up, the date with me and Chris at the park was mixed with a current event. I've never written, or journaled my life so this is kinda messy. Very messy actually.
