This was something that I wrote when I was feeling like crap and just needed to vent so I used writing to calm down. It's just feeling written down but I hope you like it.
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It is a bone chilling winter night, snowflakes dance in the slight breeze down onto the white blanket that layered itself on the freezing forest floor. Tears trail down the young boy's face, yet there is nobody there to listen to the poor boy's cry for help in the piercing quiet. His desperate cry for someone's presence goes unheard as he wishes for reassurance that he is never alone...
Depression, anger, every negative feeling but happiness. Bottled up emotions like a robot. Just a boy manipulating everything he sees and tries to imitate, only to mirror anything but good. Leading to more pain and suffering. A poor boy shouting for answers, desperately trying to mend what others thought of as a hindrance, annoying, everything that the boy feared. So many thoughts of the blood but too scared of the pain that follows. Striving to hard to satisfy everyone else's needs only turning into difficult desires. So much envy of others happiness, to the point were he didn't care how good they could be, but how good he could mimic them. Struggling to please anyone for the attention he wanted...no... He needed attention.
Love, what does it mean to be Loved or to Love another? Why is it so hard to be happy instead of sad. Some people say, "We only know about happiness because we have been worse or sad,"
but, the boy only knows negative emotions and has never known positive ones.
"What will it take for me to be normal?
Why is it so hard to feel happy?
What do I have to do just to have someone love me?"
"Why can't I think of those around me?
I can't breathe and I can't speak."
(My throat has gone dry as death valley and is as rough as sand paper)
"Why does life have to be so different?
It's a miracle when someone talks to me.
Yet, I feel alone in this world full of people.
I can't survive off of just food.
I need love, but will I be able to love back?
No one understands me.
No one sees the real me, doesn't even try to.
Someone please help me...
I want to be able to breath and live in peace, but I can't promise I can return anything back.
You can take my life, anything you want, just love me for me.
Tell me you love me.
Give me all of your attention.
Only live for me.
Speak for me.
Help me.
Please...
I need someone...
Anyone...
Just please...
Kill me..."
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Thanks for reading hoped it wasn't to dark for some viewers.
I want to thank my best friend Marissa.
She put up with all my mistakes and the emotional challenges in this story.
Love you M.R.
I encourage you to look up my other story that will be coming soon "Jane"
Thank you all so much.
-A little extra
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I drown my dispares in pleasure and desires but never requirements to live.
I need help...
I'm slowly losing myself, my sanity.
I need love.
The thing is can you save me?
Can I give my all to you?
So many questions and no one to answer them.
Please let it be you...
