COTE what ifs

Shiro x ?

Authors note: its pretty obvious, but for anyone who doesn't know, the other person is going to be from cote. I just felt that in my cote x ngnl i left shiro out quite a lot, and this is also something people in the cote wattpad server were talking about, so yeah,  enjoy!

Shiro POV: I thought back to my time when i had just meant this person. That was when i couldn't talk to anyone without my nii-san... now i could talk to them alone. For others talking to people alone was easy, a child could do it, but for me, it was no mean feat.

Flashback

I walked into the class, holding my nii-sans hand. He made some boisterous speach as always. Heh, they can't compare to us. We sat down at the back. Nii attempted to make conversation with the boy who sat next to him, but he seemed a troubled conversationalist. A girl with dark hair sat next to me, we didn't bother to talk to each other. Someone else walked into the room, they saw me looking and tried to come over and talk to me, they persisted for a bit but soon gave up. I felt bad for ignoring them but i had to gather information on the schools top players. To win.

Present

Heh, i guess i couldn't talk to them even with nii at first. They didn't stop even after that failed interaction. Back then, i couldn't show any expression at all, it was still hard to do now to be honest but at least i can recognize and acknowledge my feelings on the inside. I let out a small laugh as i thought about when i told sora i liked who i did.

Flashback

"Sora... i have something i need to ask you..."
"Uh oh, 'sora' am in trouble?" He joked with a hint of worry.
"Nothing like that... i have someone i like." i decided i would just come out and say it. He appeared shocked. I knew he would it was a bad idea to tell him... i messed up. He could see what i was thinking (as always) and cleared up the misunderstanding.
"Nonono, i think its great, so tell me," he grinned widely, "who's the lucky guy?" This is where it mattered.
"...girl..." i thought i could do it but it came out in an even quieter whisper than usual. Sora was even more shocked but then his face broke out in an even wider grin.

"D00d, think of the yuri, ahhhh yuri is such a blessed thing, the refined and subtle actions, the warmth...wait wtf!! I just thought about my own sister in a yuri situation... ah hell." I was blinded by my nii's antics. But i tried to bring it back on track.

"Nii," i tugged on the hem of his shirt, "what should i do?" This was why i had come to him in the first place, i could see the cogs turning in my brothers head.
"Okay, play it cool, like you would in a dating sim, minus the cringe. Then when their affection points are up, confess, minus the cringe. Overall, don't be cringe." Hmmm, play it cool... i suppose that played into my strong suits.

Present

...nii really helped me then, not as much as his advice, which was still pretty good, as the fact that he didn't change on my account, he was still my nii. I loved being around them, just talking to them made my day.

Flashback

"Shiro, whats up?"
"..nothing...just thinking."
"You'll be fine, for i am here!" I let out a small laugh, she smiled, seeing that i was easing up. The reason i was so tense was that i was going out without my big brother. I felt my chest tighten as i thought about this.
"We don't have to go out you know, we can just chill in my room," i smiled, she was always thinking about me. Thats why i wanted to go out with her.

Present

"What are you thinking about?" I was lying with my head on her chest. She was playing with my hair, she said it calms her down, although i think she was just doing it as she knows it soothes me.
"Our first date." This girl had changed everything for me, she broke me out of my shell and showed me a never before seen world. I loved this girl, i spun round to look at her.

"I love you, karuizawa kei."