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Chapter 1 || Memorys

I could never live peacefully, but of course no one can. My memorys are all the things that made me who I am. And when I mean the "things" I mean my trauma. All I can remember is the bad things in my life.

~Memory one~
"SHUT UP" *slap* "LEAVE THIS HOUSE NOW!" *blood on the floor.* "why.." cried my mother. I was there staring at her crying and the blood on her and the floor. The knife in her hands. The door was open and im sure the rest of the people in that apartment heard. I was there trembling,crying unable to move. Then she looked at me and I went to my room and stayed in bed.
~End~

We never got helps nor did anyone ask us if we were okay. I just really wished I never saw that nor heard that. There was one thing I hated the most and that was lies. Lies was the worst. My whole life was filled with lies.

~Memory two~
"I'll be back soon hunny I promise" She said with a sweet voice. "At what time?" I asked. "At 11:30Pm okay" She gave me a smile then hugged me and left. "okay.." I stayed up all night waiting for her.
1am: 'wheres mom?'
2am: 'she a bit late' I started to cry.
3am: 'i been here near the window but I don't see her' I was still crying
4am: 'Mom..' More crying.
5am: 'What did I do wrong?' I cried but never moved.
6am: 'Imma still wait. It doesn't matter of i'm tired.' I stoped crying by then
7am: That was when I went to sleep.
8am: She came and woke me up.

~end~

She lied. She always had but I never knew it was going to become worse that it already was. She often invited guys over and they get drunk and kiss. Some of them would stay. I never knew what p0rn was until tv.

~memory three~
"All these channels are boring" The door was closed and my brother was sleeping. His name was Angel. He was younger two years to be exact. "Ugh I wanna watch something funnnn" I started skipping every channel until I found something fun. "mmm~" "faster faster!!" That was when I discovered p0rn. "AHH~ FUCK YES~" I was entrained with it. When I heard my mom opening the door I clicked started to skip channels and said "Ugh these are boring!" My mom said "Give me the controller" "Why?" I was started to get scared. In the end I have it to her and well she found our what I was watching. "Don't ever watch that again got it?" "Yes mom"
~end~

I really wish I never saw what p0rn was but I can't change the past now. Now I was changing house and school. I went to live somewhere else and said bye to my "best friends" because now I know they were never my friends to begin with. And that old school didn't teach good.

(I will be making a new chapter around the end of aug? or sep. thank you for waiting!)