ONESHOT COMPILATION

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    We're supposed to fix ourselves but, why did you do this? I thought that you're the one who can fix myself but I was wrong. You treat me as your own medicine. You've been a good person to me, before. I'm speechless.

   For me to calm, I played my playlist and started to listen on my phone. The music is on chorus right now. I felt something.

"Puwede bang, magkunyari nalang tayo." My tears started to burst.

"Wag ngayon at 'di ko yata kakayanin." As the music goes along with the rain, I felt my heart started to crumble.

"At alam ko na 'yong sasabihin, ohh wag ngayon." This line turned my luxurious cloth into a towel. I remembered those days when I annoyed him, I begged him to come with me. It is the first time when he cheated on me. I'm such an idiot.

"Puwede ba,'wag muna. Oh teka lang, ayoko pa." As the rain goes, my face turns into a waterfall. I'm not ready to free you right now, but I know that I'll hurt myself again.

"Huwag ngayon, huwag ngayon........" Hindi ko napansin na ako ay humahagulgol na sa mga oras na 'to. I don't want to lose you but I don't want to hurt myself again. What should I do?

   Lumakas ang mga buhos ng ulan, kasabay ang mga luhang aking iniaalay sa'yo.

"Puwede ba, huwag muna?" Kasabay ng mga huling linya ng musikang ito, tila gumaan ang aking puso.

"Teka lang, ayoko pa." Agad kong pinunasan ang aking mga luha at nag-isip nang malalim.

   Maraming katotohanan ang pumasok sa aking isipan. I learned that I must heal myself first. Hindi ko dapat iniaasa sa iba ang pagbuo sa sarili ko. It's me, myself. Dapat ako ang bumuo nito. I realized too na hindi talaga kami ang para sa isa't isa. Masyado lang yata akong nagmamadali.

   Someday, I know that someone will come again, he'll treat me as his partner, he'll never let me down again, he'll make me happy, sa kahit ano mang paraan.

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