Storys are told with lies

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25/8-2021

Trigger warnings:
Self doubt
Negative thoughts
Toxic?
Drama?
Crying at night
Heartbreak
Fake happiness

Word count: 6002 words

River's POV
" Happy birthday! " I texted my best friend. Before I had told her that I was going through the groupchat but no one else had wished her a happy birthday. The same day she thanked me and I felt cheerful. She had recently moved hours away and we hadn't talked in a while.

The next day I texted her again but this time I told her " Happy name day! " since it was her names day. When that day was about to end I went into our chats just to see if she had replied. She hadn't. I was just left on read. " Maybe she was to busy to reply? " I thought to myself since it would be stressful to move to a new school.

After a few days I tried to text her again by asking her if she wanted to play some video games with me but she once again left me on read. Why didn't she respond back? We were almost inseparable before she moved away so why was she now not keeping in contact with me. I felt sad but cured it up by telling myself that she may just have to much on her mind right now.

The next day was school for me. My other two best friends invited me to hang out with them after school and I agreed. We walked into Evelyn's home and upstairs to her bedroom. We turned on a movie and started to watch it. It was a bit of a horror movie so Betty easily got scared.

After a while I heard a notification from someones phone. It was both of their phones. I sat down next to Evelyn to see what was happening. A groupchat names " the bitches ". I hadn't heard of the name before so I wasn't in that group.

I noticed Kayla's profile pic and I immediately understood. They had a groupchat without me. My heart felt like it broke. Did they not care about me? Did they secretly hate me? Was I to annoying? Was I to fat? My mind went crazy but I pretended it was fine since I didn't wanna seem like a drama queen or crybaby.

We continued to watch the movie until it was time for me to go home. My mom picked me up and I acted casual so she wouldn't suspect that I was devastated. When I got back home I just sat on my bed and let the overthinking thoughts flow in.

I acted like everything was fine to everyone. But in reality I was worried as fuck. Had they always been like this? Did K only message those she actually liked? Was I disliked by all my best friends? Were they secretly hating on me in that groupchat?

I texted her the night after that about how she was doing and I waited for a response as I waited I came across a tiktok posted by Evelyn. They had all hung out over the summer at Kayla's new house. Without even inviting me. I was heartbroken.

Why did this have to happen to me? And it was my childhood best friends to make it even worse. I missed the old Kayla. I felt the tears form on my eyes as I tried to fall asleep at around 04:37. I couldn't hold it in anymore. The tears fell down my face as I clinged to the pillow.

Were they toxic or was I just a drama queen?