𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐦𝐞 | dream smp

i don't wanna leave

TW: TALK ABOUT CANCER AND DEATH

"Chat, Stop worrying!" I told them. "I started chemo a month ago."

"Let's talk about mushroom village"

A few hours later Izzy came in and I ended stream. "Maybe see you all tomorrow chat!"

Izzy came up to me, saying: "hey Elin, i understand you don't want people worrying but the chance of you surviving isn't big."

"Thanks for rubbing it into my face sis." I snapped back.

"Eli, you too know that with lung cancer and asthma the chances of you surviving are small." She looked at me strict

"THEN THEY JUST REMOVE THAT LUNG RIGHT?" I got mad, i had way more mood swings lately.

"You know that if you have a asthma attack that one lung isn't gonna keep you standing."

"I hear voices but no one's here" i said, as the sass queen i am.

"I will leave you alone for a while." She gave me a hug.

I started crying, i knew she was right but I still didn't wanna hear it.

I used to be a healthy 13 year old, used.

A while later Niki came in. The sweetness in her voice really helped me.

"Hey El, I know that it's hard to accept that you might not make it, but let's just make the best of it while your still here."

  "Yeah, your right" I gave her a smile. "Alsoooo~ can i join the charity stream tomorrow night?"

"I will think about it."

Timeskip to next day

I was eating cereal together with Niki, as Izzy was calling with bench trio.

"You can join" Eli let out a little squeal of excitement, "but," Niki continued, "only for 2 hours."

"BUT THE STREAMS GONNA BE AT   
LEAST 6 HOURS."

"Yes and that's way too long for you."

  "What about you and Izzy?" I said disappointed

"We will still do the entire stream, but you could come to mine or Izzy's room to watch us and fall asleep there." Niki answered the question.

I understood what they were thinking and i was thankful for them but it was sad that my life got changed so much.

I wish I could go back.

The charity stream starts at 5 am and it's 2 am right now. I decided to grab an apple and go upstairs.

I send my best friend Cerf a text, asking if she wants to call. Not even a minute later she replies of course! I click on the call button and we greet each other.

We mostly talk about Minecraft and the charity stream. They will join too, but when I have to leave he will call me to talk about it and have fun together.

I think you might be confused what 'the charity stream' is, well it's an charity stream the entire dream smp will be hosting to raise money and awareness for people with cancer.

We would play Minecraft, do just chatting and play other games together.

It would be a lot of fun.

The charity stream

I clicked on the go live button and went live. "Hey chat! Hope you all had fun today."

I joined the discord call and it was complete chaos. We started by doing a Q&A asking Twitter for questions.

One of the questions was: Are Cerf and Elin in love? Me and Cerf answered at the same time saying "yes we are" then being extra clingy afterwards.

After that we did some Minecraft (aka killing each other.) We did hide and seek and it went so wrong but it was so worth it.

After just 1 hour in I started to feel unwell. I brushed it off and kept playing. We started playing Jackbox with of course Jack being crazy. Tommy and Jack made us laugh our asses off.

Ranboo then came to Tubbo and started hitting him in the face with Benson. It was... Unique. Sapnap and Dream started flirting like crazy making George, Quackity and Karl jealous. It was so chaotic.

My chest started hurting like crazy and I couldn't breathe. I felt myself fall to the ground as I heard screaming coming from my monitor.

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That was the first chapter!
I'm quite proud of it if I'm gonna be honest :D
I know that it's weird that a 13 year old gets lung cancer but it's more give it a sad vibe. I hope you enjoyed and have a great day or night <3

Word count: 743 words :)