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Today was an extremely busy and tiring day, I got my eyelashes extensions done, and I did my hair, nails afterwards. Just a little pampering cause I deserve it, but the fact that I have 3 customers tomorrow made me so irritated. Yes I loved doing hair but can I not rest?
I scrolled through Rightmove as I looked for houses that were in my budget. I felt like I was an extra problem for Chantelle. I don't want to depend on her. I wanted to finally do things for myself to me myself proud and to feel accomplished.
"I told you to get ready Winter, it's as if your ears are always blocked" she groaned as she strolled of her room, dragging her feet against the floor. dressed in a simple grey tracksuit with peach coloured yeezy slides, the same colour as mine "bitches wanna be like me okay" I laughed as I pointed at her feet and she returned a sarcastic laugh which eventually turned into a real one.
"Where are we going again?" I questioned. It seems as if she just takes me literately ANYWHERE now of days, im not going to complain though. It was honestly taking my mind of everything that had happened at home... something that I haven't told Kay yet. I was scared. He gets angry way too quickly. Very impulsive. It scares me. He has little to no patience.
"We are going to see Kay" i furrowed my eyebrows at her response, she just skipped past the question I asked her. "No Chantelle, I asked where are we going not who are we going to see" I said sternly, crossing my arms and staring at her making her give an awkward laugh. I had a pretty good idea of where she was planning it take me. I just wanted her to say it so I could tell her no.
"We're going to a band-"
"we? Please that's plural babe. Use singular for yourself cause I'm not going to a BANDO. The fuck" I said with a mug as I took of the slides and rested my feet on the sofa, making sure I was comfortable. I grabbed the remote and turned the tv on to rewatch my favourite show, blood and water on Netflix. I'm so excited for season two! Chantelle stared at me almost jaw dropped at the fact that I had gotten comfortable so quickly. "Really?" She laughed and I just simply nodded my head yes with a smile.
"That boy you were practically drooling over yesterday is going to be there" she said with an evil grin. My stomach turned at I thought of him, how did she even- "What boy?" I questioned, playing dumb, trying to fight a smile of my face which made her laugh. Next time I'll try not to look so hard so I don't get caught lacking again.
"What boy?" She mocked me and I threw a pillow off the coach at her. "The boy all the girls in South east are obsessed with, he's a bit of a whore but maybe you can change him" Chantelle gave a reassuring smile and I gave a confused look because I really couldn't tell weather she was being serious or not. "What happened last time when I tried to change a boy? Oh yeah he fucked my older sister" I laughed and Chantelle didn't cause she hates it when I joke about the situation because she knows it broke me. But I'm situations like this if I don't laugh I'll cry.
"Joke was dead I can't lie" she shrugged, making it extremely awkward. I hate when she does that "don't make jokes about it Winter. That shit was so fucked up" she muttered, shaking her head as she picked up the pillow I threw earlier and putting it back on the sofa. "I'll go" I blurted out just to distract us from the awkwardness, "I knew you would give in to see that loyal kid" she laughed and I shook my head. "Still don't know who you're talking about" I shrugged, getting up from my comfortable position and wearing my slides, following behind Chantelle as she opened the door and locking it behind me.
After a good 30 minute car drive, we arrived at a block. An unrecognisable one too. "What ends is this?" I questioned as I scanned the area, didn't look familiar at all and I know most of south east like the back of my hand "deep down in Bermondsey" she shrugged as we walked towards the metal door of the block, putting in the number 29 and pressing ring as she awaited for answer but no one answered. "maybe you have to talk first so they know who you are, you could be feds" i laughed and I heard Kay's laugh from small speaker "see at least one you fo you have sense" he chuckled. "Open the door fam, stop all the talk" Chantelle laughed as the buzzer beeped and we opened the heavy door
"I need to pee so bad" I muttered as we waited for the lift, my legs were crossed as I waited for the lift to come, we entered the lift, the closer we got the 3rd floor the more I needed to pee, the door was open so we made our way inside. "TOILET, WHERE THE TOILET" i yelled ad I held my shorts trying not to piss myself. "Down the hallway and to your left" Kay laughed and I followed his instructions and made my way in.
I shook the water off my hands as I left the bathroom walking into the living room where everyone one was. I greeted everyone, and almost instantly taking out my phone to distract my self for interfering in any conversation. Instagram. I scrolled through my feed. Liking pictures and chuckling at memes. My head started to hurt from the smell of the weed scatz and Ls smoked in the balcony. I'm assuming Kay could tell I was uncomfortable with the strong smell as He had gotten up and closed the door of the balcony, giving me a reassuring head nod,
"You hungry?" He asked as he took a seat next to getting comfortable "yeah, but I don't really know what to eat" I shrugged he took our his phone and texted someone, I tried to peek my head to see what he was typing but he moved his phone away making me mug him "nosey much" he laughed as he finished typing and placed his phone back in his pocket. "One of my guys are downstairs, I told him to wait you so he can take you shops or sum'"
"I'm fine going by myself Kay I'm not a child" I laughed and shook my head as I approached the door. "How do you open- never mind" Kay laughed at me and I shotgun an unimpressed look making him laugh even harder.
I hummed the begging of playing games as I walked down the stairs cause I just didn't feel like taking the lift, I shook my mind of the thought about loyal. The song reminds me of him for some odd reason. I'm attracted to his demeanour, I like the way that you wouldn't be able to guess how he acts just by how he dresses cause he has something about him that makes him different. It's not like I would have a chance with the boy anyways, he's supposedly south east London's fave. What on earth would he be doing with a damaged and insecure female like myself?
"Yo, your Winter yeah?" he asked me in a nonchalant tone as I approached the bottom of the stairs. Oh no.
"So you just gonna stare or can we cut? Cause I've got shit to do"
