Sarah paulson comfort stories<3

TB Karen-you deserve the world

(i kinda wanted to be one of the first ppl to do this also there are some AHS 10 spoilers in here, enjoy!!<3 also i hope ur doing ok:) )

TW:DRUG ABUSE,SU!CUDAL THOUGHTS

I'm in my bathroom floor feeling numb, every pill,every drug,every bottle of alcohol,it's all temporary.I've been dealing with Substance abuse but no one knows about it. I had only one person,Karen.She was so sweet to me, always wanted to help but was called crazy even though she wasn't.
*knock knock*
"uhm....y/n..? are you home?"
i sighed because i just wanted to be left alone.i hated company, god i just wanted one of these drugs to kill me already.
"yeah..just a sec."
i tried to stuff all my empty can bottles in my bathtub and in my cabinets as quick as possible and started to comb my hair with my fingers and put gum in my mouth as answered the door
"hey karen!"
she smiled when i opened the door and gave me a hug
"Hey y/n!! i haven't seen you in forever! mind in i come in?"
"not at all make yourself at home."
i tried my best to seem fine. while we were talking she asked,
"can i use your bathroom?"
"uh"
i got scared she would see everything.
"yeah of course!"
"thank you so much, you're to sweet"
when i heard the door close i slowly went towards the bathroom door just incase she saw everything.
i heard the toilet flush with the sink and heard her hit something on the tub
"Ow- what the-?"
i heard the shower curtains open.
"oh my god-"
i stood there frozen,she knew now.she was gonna leave me now like everyone else.
she slowly opened the door and saw me there frozen with tears in my eyes forming
we stood there for a couple of seconds before i started to shake and collapsed onto the floor.

she practically ran to me and held me in her arms stroking my hair softly and started to shush me to get me to calm down
"i'm so sorry."
"it's ok sweetheart i'm here now."
i cried in her arms for a couple of minutes as she held me in one of her arms and grabbed tissue to give me to wipe the snot and tears off my face
"here cmon"
she tried to lift me up and grabbed some tissue too.
she grabbed some of my blankets while we were walking out of my room and she rapped me in my blankets and sat me down on my couch and handed me the roll of tissue paper and went to the kitten and came back with a glass of water and handed it to me and told me to take small sips and gave me a small warm smile

"when or of you wanna talk ill be here ok?"
i nodded and she held me close to her,
"it's just,i want to feel happy,better..i want this constant feeling of numbness to go away."
she held me tighter and closer and listened to me and understood
"i'm sorry i couldn't be there for you but i am now,i care about you, you're the nicest person i've ever met.you mean to much to me you deserve the world."
crying made me tired and i fell asleep in her arms and when she realized i did she smiled and started to go to sleep too, and we fell asleep in each others arms on my couch.