I love someone for many weeks and they end up hating me and getting pissed at my personality, that is why I ask them if they think I'm annoying...and I am. So yeah, if you ever had a crush on me, you're either insane now or going insane.
I just broke up with the most toxic guy I ever dated for longer than a week. Fuck Elijah, max was 100x more toxic than Elijah ever was. Like Jesus Christ, he told me I should kill myself just because I broke up with him! He was telling me and acting all heartbroken, WTF I haven't been in your shoes yet but I have more problems then just one god damn girl breaking up with you because she hated how you treated others. He was being an asshole for no fucking reason! Just cuz he's "broken", doesn't mean he can be a dick to everyone! I get it he's like me, but chill you god damn demon. He gets mad at little things. I know exactly what is wrong with him but he won't listen to me because "I'm lying", to be honest, I fucking hate people like him, at least I pretend to care about people and sometimes I be a bitch because those are my true colors
I am living happily right now, I got a perfect girlfriend and I love her. Her name is Maelle. I guess you can call her my tsundere angel!<3
Back to max, he is an asshole for no reason and that is one of the many reasons why I broke up with him, here is a list of why he was a toxic friend and a toxic boyfriend: (mostly a toxic bf)
He was a jerk to a lot of people when the people tried to be nice to him
I keep defending him for his problems, I apologized to people for his behavior I hated it, I hated making my friends hate me because of the person I loved, I hated him for not apologizing sooner, he hurt many people
He used to care about me and ask if I was ok, but he changed, he used to be more romantic, he was with his friends more then me, at least I would try and be with him. He never did that and that made me feel unloved.
I wanted to run away from the camp because of how he was treating me...it only got worse... I didn't like that
He didn't care when I was sad, he was with his friends more than me, his girlfriend! He told me not to kiss anyone even if we were close friends, he was touching his goddamn friends in their thighs!!! DON'T TELL ME WHAT NOT TO DO WHEN YOU DO IT TOO
He treated me like his friends, he used to treat me like his girlfriend when we started dating, I got insecure and nervous around him because I thought he wouldn't like me when I was myself...like Elijah did
I have bad experiences with guys when I like them/ when I'm dating them...but girls make me happy. I can be myself around them and be romantic and be a top with them. Max was a top and I was a top we were never meant to be. I thought I loved him but once I heard what he did to many people for no reason, I realized I have a bad taste in men. He cussed at me and that made me feel like a disappointment. He tried to impress his friends...so do I but I show my true colors to them not be a totally different person around them...they are fake ass friends.
Long story short, I hate him for not talking about his problems and decided that he should be a dick to get over his problems...we broke up three times, but we always got back together. I want to still be friends cuz I know what his true colors are but he thinks I'm a bitch. I am but I can relate to his backstory so I won't be.
I have a confusing back story since I act differently around many people. I'm just going to say I have multiple personalities that I can control sometimes.
I have two or more I guess. Being nice(caramel) and being a sassy bitch(iris)
Back to Max, I asked many people who knew Max for more than a month. They say he is a jerk and that he gets in trouble just because he wants attention, like me! He hit his friends and me, as I said before he treated me like his friends, not his girlfriend, he thought I liked him for his "let me impress my friends'' I hate him for that, I fell in love with him because he was himself, nice, caring and not a dick...I loved him for that but he changed for his friends, I loved him for him, and Jackson understands that. I adopted a lot of kids there. I have three kids that I love, Inez, Nikki, and Jackson. I could relate to Inez and Nikki, Jackson was just there for me when max didn't care. Jackson should stop hanging out with max, max is a bad influence because he tries to be.
Jackson feels more comfortable when he's with me, he told me, he doesn't feel comfortable with Max because Max gets angry real quick, and he hits Jackson, I hate that he's hitting my son.
I apologize for a lot because....I've been mentally abused by bullies in my past and myself...I don't take compliments because they would always say I'm beautiful than say I was a dumb bitch for believing that... When I was with Max I remembered every little thing that made me into a bully...I relate to Max because I was also a bully, I just talked to someone about my problems and I turned into who I am today. Me and Max are better off as friends, we have the same interests. We were never meant to be. God sent so many signs that we were never meant to be dating, for fucks sake we broke up three times for idiotic reasons that only I can explain, cuz max tries to pin his problems on other people.
He was a great boyfriend, but he needed to be himself and not try to impress me, I loved him for him. He just needed to know that, anyway, I'm a Satanist and I'm bisexual. This is my love life in a nutshell. (Satanist is not bad, I promise)
