why?

 Dexters pov: 

Have you ever fell in love with someone so much it hurts? That's how he makes me feel. Jackson makes me feel whole when I look at him. His diamond blue eyes make me want to cry. Jackson has always been strong, kind, and smart while I am what they call a nerd. I've never been athletic. I m in band and I've never dated anyone. Which means I'm a virgin. I know a junior in high school and hasn't had sex yet crazy. "DEXTER!" Jamie yells. " What..!" I say in a annoyed tone