Softie

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Billie's POV

a week later and I've chosen to go back to school thinking that everybody probably forgotten about my disappearance but I was wrong now I'm known as the girl that was kidnapped, I'm still constantly being bullied sometimes even worse than before but I'm too weak to defend myself.

Flashback

7 year old Billie

I was crying on a log next to a pond full of frog leaves, flowers, the little frogs and fishes that live in the water, I come here when I'm feeling sad and just need to forget about everything or write my feelings down or just need a good cry.

"Why are you crying?" My dad sat next to me on the log

"Riley called me mean names at school today" I sniffed and wiped my tears

"She's just a bully don't listen to her"

"..Papa do you think I'm fat?"

"No I think you're just fine no matter how you look what makes you say that?"

"Riley says I am all the time"

"Don't listen to that big bully she's just trying to get under your skin, hey you are my perfect girl and you are beautiful alright now wipe those tears we're getting ice cream" he smiled

"Okay" I smiled and we got into the car singing songs by Avril Lavigne on the way to the ice cream shop

End of flashback

Dreams about old memories with my dad.. that's new. When I was little me and my dad had a good relationship, but he started drinking and he changed for the worse, I haven't seen him since he left again, I heard he ran off with some girl who's just a couple years older than me, it's sick if you think about it but he can't hurt us anymore. I  got up getting ready for hell I mean school, did my morning routine and put on a hoodie and sweatpants, I threw my hair in a messy bun and put on my shoes before heading for the door

"Hey are you going to have anything to eat?" My mom asked

"No I'm good" I walked out the door, I put on my headphones and blasted music in my ears as I walked to school. When I got there I took out my headphones and put them in my bag

"Hey b" Tessa kissed my cheek

"Hi" I said dryly

"Wussup with you, you look like you haven't slept"

"I'm okay"

"o-kay did you eat?"

"Yeah" I lied

"No you didn't Billie what's wrong?"

"Tessa I'm fine stop worrying about me all the time" I raised my voice making her jump a bit and go completely silent so did everyone around us, I scoffed and went to my first period not even paying attention to what the teacher was saying just kept my head down the whole time

"Billie.. Billie..Billie!"

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?"

"Excuse me I know you're not using that language with me young lady detention"

"Fine I don't want to be in your shitty class anyway" I grabbed my stuff

"Go to the principal's office!"

"Fuck you bitch" i walked out heading to the principal's office but instead I just walked out of school and headed behind the school, I don't know what has gotten into me lately but I've been acting different

"Hey" Amber sat next to me

"Hi"

"You good?"

"No I just cussed out a teacher I'm going to be in so much trouble" i hid my face in my hands

"I know what you need"

She pulled out and blunt and a lighter

"Try it"

I was always against smoking but something came over me and I took it and lit it taking a drag from it and surprisingly didn't cough from it and passed it back to her, after a couple mintues it started kicking in and I felt more relaxed

"You have more?" I asked her

She pulled out a small bag full of it

"20 bucks and it's all yours"

I pulled out a 20 from my bag and passed it to her and she gave me the weed

"Thanks"

"I could help a friend out once in a while" she nudged my shoulder

Me and Amber were friends in elementary to middle school, she was the more troubled kid and I was the good kid but that didn't really stop us from being best friends, I don't really know what happened to us we just drifted apart but it feels good talking again.
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"What the hell Billie you got detention?" Tessa approaches me

"Yeah"

"Why what happened?"

"Nothing"

"Well it's obviously something"

"I cussed out the teacher there you happy"

".. are you on something?"

"What?"

"Don't think I can't smell the weed on your clothes Billie what the fuck were you thinking, did I get you into this?"

"No it was my decision"

"Well you should make wiser decisions"

"Like all the wise decisions you made?" I tried to walk away but she pushed me against the wall

"Listen once you get hooked on that shit you won't be able to stop that's what I'm trying to tell you"

"I'm not a little kid anymore so stop treating me like one"

"Then grow the fuck up and listen to what I'm telling you"

"Fuck you Tessa" I pushed her and left off to detention