You feel,
Numb.
Like no-one can hurt you,
And no-one can help you.
It feels like you are a shell.
The cocoon of who you used to be.
It's exhausting,
It's intoxicating
-
If only it would stop.
You have no will to live,
And no will to die.
If only.
If only it could stop.
-
You are like,
Nothing.
Nothing means nothing to you.
You feel, empty, worthless,
Dead on the inside.
Almost the ghost of a person,
The person you used to be.
You have no motivation to do anything.
Because everything feels like nothing.
You don't have the words to express.
This drowning feeling.
As if you are always on the edge of time.
Not knowing how to cope.
Why can't you do anything?
Nothing helps.
You can't get it out.
Words do not express this empty,
Numbing feeling you feel.
Nothing helps.
Blood sweat and tears,
Cannot let you out.
Because you are trapped in the infuriating box of
depression
