I knew you were Trouble

Prologue

I was never a bad girl, I hardly ever did anything wrong. I always gave in schoolwork on time, I was an a-grade student, I had 100% attendance, I did what I was told and always tried to make everyone happy. I was a simple, cheerful and kind teen with a heart of gold. I loved my friends, my family, and I loved you. As much as I hated you, I loved you with all my heart. But now, I’m kneeling here, crying, with blood staining my hands as I sob uncontrollable, still trying to come to terms with what had happened, I’m scared, what will happen. It was your own fault, you deserved it, but you didn’t, it shouldn’t have happened, but I couldn’t stop it, it happened all too fast. Your lying, dying, crying, in front of me, but I’m not doing anything, I can’t do anything but shake my head and deny what has happened, screaming and crying and trying to laugh, thinking it’s a nightmare, I was a good girl, but you made me bad, and now, now this has happened. I knew it, I knew you were trouble, the moment you walked in, I knew it, but shame on me, I let you push me down, and now I’m lying on the cold ground, with blood all over me. I met you a few mistakes ago, when you found me, you changed me, and you didn’t care, but I liked it. I fell apart as you stepped back without me, you were already long gone, and I realise now, it’s my fault. You made me cry, and then acted like you didn’t know it was you, you never apologise for anything, I was just another trophy on a shelf, that’s all, but I continued to fight for you, and now look at us, where we are, what have we achieved? Nothing but death and disaster. But the saddest fear creeps over me that you never loved me, or her, or anything at all, you’re incapable of love, that’s just how you are. I knew it all too well, what would come of it all, but I didn’t want to accept it, I still don’t, but I can’t help it. But all I’m doing, is lying here with the autumn leaves falling around us, covered in your blood, with nothing but the story of how we came to this.