Strawberries And Cigarettes.... [TAEKOOK]

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JEON JUNGKOOK...

The person who changed my life... Where I am today, never thought I will be. Ugh! How to start I have no idea. My mind goes blank when I think about you. I wanna say today all that I feel about you.

Jungkookie.... I saw you first in blood sweat and tears... I didn't even knew anything about k-pop.. All thanks to nikkylovesvkook 💜(ily) . ..... I started recognising u then... Among all 7 members... Of course you were her bais so.. She made me see clips, photos and videos of you. Falling for u was not a quick task for me. It didn't happen at first sight... I saw you and I was like okay! This is k- pop and this is jungkook... I couldn't even spell your name that time.. Lol! And see where are I am now ... . It was not easy for me jk... To choose you , to choose myself, to be me, to be real me. Knowing that I was being fake all my life and you bring the real me was just so hard and overwhelming for me to believe

You made me realise so many things you just changed me... I am a whole new person now bun. And I love this version of me... Because it's me, just me.

Breaking my 8 years relationship which has nothing left in it, was not easy... Being with the person whom you have loved all those years! Yet you gave me strength and support to face all these not to ignore my biggest strength ever nikkylovesvkook and _Shweta___(don't be angry....you too are important person in my life ily💜) . To realise ,that, that person doesn't feel things towards me anymore.. And I was in a toxic relationship..

You made me feel things which I never thought I will ever feel in my life,the feeling of surrendering to someone in all ways. A tingling sensation when I think about you, when I see you oh ,my heart just skip beat. As if my eyes will never get tired of just staring at you . . . You make me feel a women in this society ,when you have to be as strong as a man...you make me feel all giddy inside.......That bunny smile uff! That has my heart... Not just your looks attracted me but how as a person you are, so focused and ambitious ...your personality pulled me towards you...I didn't realise when all this happen...it was so fast.... And it's not like after this my life was less than a mess that it already was.... But the difference is just...it's a beautiful mess. *sighs*

It hurts so much thinking that you are far... Very far from me... I have cried at nights thinking of just the distance between us and how one sided the things are.... Cried, missing and craving for u... My heart just churns when i crave for you.... And the fact that I can't have you... It's hurts really bad bun.

The reason I have realised that what I want and what I was missing in my life and what a man in my life meant ....... Was the things you do to TAEHYUNG ..... I have started feeling for u after I saw how you cared for him, how you see him, how possessive you are for him ,the love you have for him in your eyes made me fall for you even harder... Then taekook became my hope, happiness and world.

You two are just so perfect I don't want anything other that you two together. The believe I have in you both.... Make me belive in myself .

Now, I have started taking everything positively because you never know what future may hold for you..... Nothing is impossible... I wish I ,meet you once in my life and all the other members , you all give me hope, strength and make me the happiest person in every situation. .. I don't cry every night now... Rather I promise myself to reach u one day., to fulfill all my dreams ...you gave me the biggest thing and that is wings to my dream and now I just need to learn how to fly...... To just meet you once and I believe I will.... Thanku for always being the man in my life....