CONFUSED || Taehyung Fan Fiction ||

9 || ᴅʀᴏᴡɴɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ||

With a blink of an eye, it was already the day before prom. Everyone was squealing, rambling, giggling in delight as the day went through. Some have dates that would accompany them and some didn't, choosing only to go for the food and to have a blast with their friends.

People were currently lining up for the last minute ticket buying with the hallways almost painted with the posters for prom with the theme 'Moonlight'. It was perfect. The student council purposely chose tomorrow's Friday because it lands on a full moon at its highest peak and the event would take place in their schools huge football field, under the natural light of the night.

Luckily Y/n found a date at the last minute. Asking Daeyoung out of the blue which completely surprised the girl but nevertheless said yes. Y/N has rejected so many proposals because she only wanted one person to go with and we all no who it is.

Sadly, things seemed to falter. She just hoped that their friendship wouldn't. Indeed, it is quite confusing. Y/n still likes him but her denial is strong. For the sake of her wild and free lifestyle, she refused Jimin but a part was also given to her puzzling thoughts about her sexuality. It wasn't that easy to let go and she knew once she opens up about it, it'll be the talk of the town and men would start tolling in, queuing for her hand.

"I'm sorry... but I also feel the same way" Y/n mumbled inaudibly underneath her breath.

"Pardon?"

"I said I feel the same way"

"Then does that mean you're accepting—"

"No. Let me finish, Jimin" Y/n cuts off making his eyebrows knot together as he slowly leaned back to his chair with growing disappointment. He locked his gaze with hers when she looked up to search in his eyes.

Biting her lip in hesitation then taking a deep breath before she opened her mouth to speak. "I feel the same way, although, I want to be honest with you. Tell you how I really feel. Tell you what runs in my mind whenever I think of you... First of all, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you have to go through your self-contemplation just because of my preferences to whom I'm attracted to.

But Jimin, I do like you too. More than a friend. It surprised me too. Yes, maybe I'm finally trying to open up to liking guys again, but it's kind of hard for me. Especially because I've always loved women. I've always loved being physically and emotionally intimate with them and slowly sharing the idea of intimacy with men would be a weird step for me. I know I'm kinda making a big deal about it but all of this? All of it would be new to me again. To others, it may be easy for them to just decide who they choose to be but for me, I find it difficult...You know what I went through" she paused, Jimin's face deliberately showing sympathy but he didn't give any remarks, instead he kept quiet motioning for Y/N to continue. 

"Second, I like who I am right now. Someone who does anything she likes to do. Specifically, me being with whoever I wanna be. See, I don't want to hurt you when I'm still going through this 'wild teenage' phase. I'm not  yet ready to settle down and commit myself to a relationship. Although it hurts for me to say this but truthfully, I'm rejecting you for the sake of my freedom because I'm not tied down... I like you, I really do. Though, when I realized I do, I got scared. Scared because I shouldn't be feeling this way.

I didn't want to like you once again because shit, I love the feeling of liking you. You swoon me every god damn time and maybe because of the attachment I have for you as my childhood best friend. I worried that this day would come. I hoped that it wouldn't so that I wouldn't have to say all of this to you and just keep our open friendship. I'm really, truly sorry, Jimin" at last, she sighed, waiting for the man in front of her to give any sort of reaction but he remained quiet as if drowning from the sudden wave of explanation that came his way.