SidNaaz Vibe

sinking feeling 💔

I am student and was preparing for something but sometimes i need to distract myself from this to keep my mind in sane and i got my distraction "sidnaaz ", aisa ni ki maine pahle bigboss ni dekha tha ..i started to watch bb11 wo thk tha to 12 ko thoda dekha but that was boring isliy jab bb13 aaya tha i was not watched it from starting but phr dekha aur ek baar ni kai baar dekha h in do saalo m phr bhi pura ni dekha h ....jisme bhi mujhe lagta ki done m se koi ek jada hurt h wo episode ajj bhi skip karti thi inshort pura pura bb13 aj tk ni dekha ....srf unko hi dekha tha.

In starting ..mereko lagta tha ki m shehnaaz k liy thoda biased hu kuki sidharth toh intelligent tha na.

Maine bb14 ya bbott jada ni dekha srf tit and bit kuki they are not there.

So i became addicted to them jaise sid ne sana ko bola tha na ki wo uski cigarette h same to same they became my relaxing drugs....since i m career oriented girl toh social media ya WhatsApp se dur hi rahti thi but jab bhi insta p aati toh bs unke hi reel ya vm dekhti hu....jaise app sab bulate ho na silent sippers...unme se hi hu.

Starting m accidentally i read few sidnaaz fiction on Instagram only ...phr thode tym m wha k sare padh liy ...no idea ki wattpad exists bhi karta h phr khi dekha tha kisi k insta id p mention tha...u remember starting m someone wrote on insta phr usko wo Twitter p bhi dalti thi...naam yaad ni aa rha sry but she wrote very beautifully.

One day jab kuch karne ko ni tha toh maine simply Google p type ki 'sidnaaz fanfiction' aur pata wha bhi starting m Twitter ya insta hi aata tha...socho kitne pahle se padhti thi...shayad bb13 chahu hi tha tab....phr dheere dheere insta se wattpad p aa gyi..

Yoy know I'm little introvert,  thodi padhaku, tom boy girl ni bolte waise....toh app kisi couple ko ship kar rhe ho ye openly thode na bol sakte ho toh maine kitne tym id banai h kitni dlt ki h finally ye wala bacha h kafi tym se aur hamesha rahega bhi kuki padhta padhte kab likhne ka maan kiya pata hi ni chala.

U knw maine kuch stories to kitni baar padhi h ...kuki now few months achi stories hi ni milti thi sidnaaz p ya toh koi over hota tha ya phr kisi m mazza hi ni aata tha...

U knw m itni addict hu sidnaaz se ki m agr din m 24 ghante social media p hu to mtlb usme 23 ghante ya toh unke reel dekh ri hongi ya phr Twitter p unke trends aur sabse jada stories padh ri houngi.

So for me they are my detox...aur abhi bhi pata h ki ni chalana h insta Twitter iss tym phr bhi chala ri ...ho hi ni rha....i am so stressed..samjh hi ni aa rha ki abb kaise relax karungi...kaise distract karungi khud ko ...so so so 💔....

I can't believe ki wo chala gya matlb he was too good too fit to go man...he was so happy so successful so real so content sab kuch tha uske pass abhi success,  fame , love his shehnaaz...but 💔

How she will live..mtlb tum sab samjh sakte na ki kya m feeel kar ri...how she will cope up...

Pata h I'm so pratical person ...but abhi aisa lag rha ki sarre stories suni h wo sach ho jaye...aur wapas kuch aisa ho ki wo mil jaye...kuch toh ho...i want them together...may be selfish wish but yaar its 💔