My Mental State Of Mind

2 Weeks of nothingness

Its almost 2 weeks eversince I started I started doing nothing. I didn't eat, didn't move or did anything. I just sleep. If I am awake, I just stare at my phone until it lulls me to sleep. I can't die cause my body automatically moves itself to relieve me of hunger or discomfort. I did lose weight because I neglect to eat. Losing the weight didn't make myself feel any lighter. I feel lightheaded from time to time maybe from sleeping too much. This has happened before and i want to recall how i overcome it. In those days that I did nothing, a friend visited me and ask for help. My energy jolted up and i helped him. but once he left, i feel empty again. I'm simultaneously sabotaging my career and social life, I know that. I want someone to talk to but I'm to embarass to open up, can i say that..."hey friend, I'm depress for no reason so.." 

yes, i feel depress for no reason which makes me feel even sadder and angry at myself to even tell anyone.