My Mental State Of Mind

What I chose to do

Right now, I'm contacting a psychiatrist. This feels like a joke, I just graduated MA in Psychology yet here I am, can't even help myself. This is me fighting to feel positive so I did it. 

I just want to cry just to feel something. I miss my parents. Nanay called me days before and she ask if I'm okay. I was to stubborn and embarrass to say that I'm not okay. I hung up on her eventhough she's just concern. Work has contacted them already, trying to locate where I am. I'm just here. Lonely sad and alone.

I'm still trying to figure out if I'll need to be clinically diagnose. Is this the right thing to do?