TW - Hints of suicide and mentions of drug/alcohol abuse
She appears again, vividly.
I can't reach out to touch her but I can predict the words that will come out of her mouth next.
"I can't bring myself to love you, I never will."
That simple phrase shattered my heart, broke my soul and left me empty completely. It defined me as a person I am today, broken and torn, but I still put up a façade of confidence to fool those around me.
No other woman will ever have my heart like her, no other woman will ever grab my attention like her. To think I would've dropped it all for her, and I did.
The thing that dropped was a chair but the rope clasped on to me, the same way she had a grasp on my heart.
I survived because my best friend arrived at the right time, I used to say it was wrong timing he saved me but it was only right because I became what I am today.
Now she appears in my dream again, taunting me.
"You really tried to kill yourself over me? Do you think I would've cared?" she paused, inching closer "because I wouldn't of"
Tears threaten to spill but I hold them back, closing my eyes and listening to her words, she isn't real I tell myself, it's only a dream I tell myself.
She loves me, I convince myself.
It's all I can do until I can fill the void, but it's only filled with temporary women and strong spirited alcohols, both destroying me even more.
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