Hey I'm Maya this is a book filled with storys about people that need advise. Please private message me what you need advise on and i will gladly write about it. The first one is one I need advise on. Enjoy!
Hey guys, this is mainly going to be about my crush so let's get into it. Also I'm going to use a different name just in case somehow he finds it.
Ok let's start from the beggining. I was in 4th grade when I moved from the most innocent people to a not so innocent school or it was just the people I hung out with. I was friends with 4 girls, Celia, Oliva, Isabella, and Ana(my BFF rn). Celia and Isabella would talk about sex and shit like that. And Ana gave everyone a dirty mind. Oliva was you average drama girl Me I was the innocent one that didn't cuss and didn't even know what gay meant. I had to ask my friends and other people to tell me things and I learned to price things together. But it was fine, I got out of the "talk" with my parents and everything. I didn't really have a crush on anyone in 4th plus I didn't even rlly know what a having a crush felt like. While my friends "dated" and cussed like sailors (which I didn't mind) I have a twin sister that I thought would tell on me if I "dated" or cussed so I never took that chance Well Celia, Oliva, Ana, and Isabella all had different classes in 5th. Celia and Isabella stayed good friends with being in the same class and me and Ana stayed good friend even though we were in different classes and Oliva was out of the picture hanging out with random people everyday. But in 5th I became good friends with the most popular girl in the school but it was really toxic. We were friends in 4th and it caused a lot of drama. But that's not the point. Emma and me were in the same class. We had 3 rotations, ELA, math, and science/history. A different teacher for every class but you stayed with the same people. Well all year I sat near a messy blond boy that I ended up crushing on. In math he sat infront of me and we would get in so much trouble talking well mainly me (the teacher didn't like me) in ELA he sat diagonal from me. And in science/history he sat behind me. He was my first real crush that I never told anyone about. Emma was my BFF at the time and I couldn't trust her. One of are friends told us something that he didn't want us to tell people and she told everybody. So I kept everything to myself. But the messy blond did safety patrol and I did. The gods must have been happy with me and had him do the class never to the one I did(they were 1st grader) but me and him would talk all the time. Well about a month into safety patrolling the head person for it asked me if I wanted to move to a different class Hmmm 🤔 let me thing Moved and not be able to talk to him everyday? Oh this is a hard decision. I pick stay here I told her I'm fine where I am, and when he had the choice to move he moved right next to me on the other side. We'd talk every day and everything. It was great, then he stopped being a safety patrol I believe it's because of his grades but I'm not sure. But I finally moved from the class that I got to love and know. To a kindergarten class which was the worst decision, it was loud and they were so fucking annoying. And I felt guilty because every time I saw the first graders they would hug me and ask why I left them. But then covid hit, I lost contact with Emma and the messy blond. My parents ended up having me do virtual because they didn't want us spending 6 hours a day in a mask. Now I'm in 7th and back at school. Me and my bestie Ana both walk into the school we both never been to and hope for the best. The first week was something I didn't expect. But first I need to talk about the virtual year. After about 3-4 months I thought I got over the messy blond and I told my friends finally about how I had a crush on him. My friends weren't impressed. But who really cares about that. Well my friend Ana when to the school once for a certain test and saw Jay (the messy blond, not his real name) I asked about him and she said he looked the same and some girls were trying to get his snap. For some reason I felt jealous rise in my chest but I played it off like I didn't care. I didn't think about it that much and went on with my life. After she told me that though I would random have him pop into my mind. But now let's really get into the first week of 7th. I had a guy that wasn't my type at all ask for my number which I gave him out of pity. But here's the texts anyways.
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Yeah that's the texted we are mutual friends now but I haven't texted him since. But that Thursday I started talking with this guy from school named Sebastian. He was sweet and everything but I didn't want to date him the first week of school if you understand what I mean. But that's just what happened in the first week and one of Sebastian's friends ended up liking my twin sister and called us hot which is new. (Also comment and tell me who wants a face reveal, I will probably do one at around 100-200 reads) But me and Sebastian sat next to each other and his friends being guys started spitting comments like: "Put your arm around her" "Sit closer to her" And just wait for it "Finger her already" "Bend over" One taps on my shoulder "Hey he has a big dick" My head: ok I don't really want to know how you know that And that isn't even the worst things they said. But I did think I liked Sebastian, but after seeing Jay I knew I would never think about Sebastian the way I think about Jay. Sebastian I know is here for me and I can trust him. He's a really sweet and caring guy but there is just something about Jay and idk what. Now back to Jay, then I find out that Jay was in my civics and somehow I didn't realize that until Friday when that teacher had us move are seats And annoyingly Jay says this "Go sit by your girlfriend" to Sebastian But I end up finding out that Jay started dating this pretty blond girl and he started dating her on Friday when everyone thought me and Sebastian were dating. (Well Sebastian thought I said ok to dating when I said ok to whatever he was asking me through text) But anyways when I heard he was dating this pretty blond girl named Emma it was a sting to my heart. And then a wave of jealousy rushed through my veins. He was tall now and his voice got Bella deep. He was now hot not just cute. And it wasn't a surprise he got a girlfriend but it still hurt. Well my life when on and I had to hear her simp over him and how they were caught making out in 3rd period which I already had to hear about from him. He's in my 3rd period and I heard him tell his friend. Well we all know how it feels when your crush says your name right? If you don't I'm going to explain it to you. You get instant butterflies it's so hard to explain it's just amazing. Well idk why I'm surprised he knew my name he was showing me a scar on his arm from his brother stabbing him (don't ask I don't even know why) and he tapped my shoulder and says "hey maya this is the scar" him taping my shoulder and saying my name was enough for me to die right there. And I went all day thinking about it and him. I was so shocked he knew my name but idk why I was. It was so odd, of course he knew my name but it still was amazing. I need help, I have a crush on him again and he has a girlfriend. What do I do?
