RAVAGED SOUL

🌳When Time leaves🌳

It's been four months but there had been no clue about Debu and to put it on worse now only Ananya and Vivaan remembered him, rest all didn't even knew a bit of his existence......

"Kaha ho tum dabbu....four months ho gye hai but tumhari koi khabar nahi hai...you know tumhare jaane ke baad kuch bhi pehle jaisa nhi reh gya hai....na Bharat Nagar wale, na Vivaan aur naa hi mai...taras gyi hoon tumhe dekhne ke liye...hmari unn cat fights ke liye....naa jaane kyon aaj kal logo ke sath reh kar bhi akela feel hota h....ab naa to koi mere 'oh hello' ka 'hello' reply deta hai na mere 'you' ka 'me'....", she was lost in her memory lane with him while noting down her thoughts in a diary which was very special to her

"Bharat nagar mein kisi ko bhi tum yaad nahi ho except me and Vivaan, I don't know ki ye blessing hai ya curse because na to tumhe bhulaa paa rhi hoon aur naa hi tumse door rhne ke gham mein jee paa rhi hoon....ek dard hai jo mere dil ko khaye jaa rha hai...jaise chaaron oor sirf andhera hai aur yaha se bahar nikalne ki koi ummeed nahi hai...."

"Jab tum sath the to lgta hai ki poori life time hum sath hi rhenge....bhale mai tumse irritate hoti thi, tumse ladti thi, tumhe dabbu, duffer, monkey pata nahi kya kya bolti thi....but I never meant to hurt you....but aaj tumhari ye diary read krke lgta hai...ki I'm the one jisne hmesha tumhe hurt kiya...and that's true maine bhot sataya hai tumko, bhot bura bhala bola, I don't know ki mai kaise aisa bol skti hoon vo bhi tumhare baare mein....jabki mujhe acche se pata hai ki jab meri life mein koi nahi tha tab bas tum the...."

"Tum hi the jisne mere har gam mein mera sath diya....ha thode darpok the...mtlb bhot jyada...but still aaj bhi agar koi pooche to ye Ananya aankh band karke bhi apne dabbu pe yakeen kar skti hai....lekin ek question hai mere mann mein agar ki maine ye sab kiya kyon tumhare sath...as if unn dino mai mai thi hi nahi...jaise body aur mind mera hi ho but mujhe control koi aur kr rha ho....mere mouth se tumhare liye nikale vo words mujhe bhi hurt krte hai...par kyoon....kyoooon maine tumhe vo sab kaha...", her eyes were clearly reflecting the hate she had for herself

The hate which was not even allowing her to live, nowadays she doesn't even pay attention on her diet, sometimes she even skips meal for a day long until Devaki ji reminds her, day dreaming, being lost in her own world, mental breakdown for no reason, being silent almost all the time, she had turned to a hopeless romantic from the bubbly angry bird she was earlier

"Vivaan khta hai ki mai kisi ke control mein thi...ray khta hai ki Vivaan sahi bol rha hai infact vo bhi ussi dushman ke control mein tha....par uss new villain ne tumpar hi kyon attack....aur inn sab ke liye mujhe hi kyon istemaal kiya, why me", tears started rolling down her eyes

"Sab dikhate to aisa hain ki meri bhot care krte hai but agar care krte to mujhe andhere mein nhi rkhte...sab apni life mein busy hai...sab mujhse sac chupa rhe hain....poori baat koi nahi batata....sab ke apne raz hain...aur inn secrets ki duniya mein mujhe ghutan hone lgi hai....ek tum hi the jo bina kuch kahe bhi bhot kuch bol dete the...ek tum hi the jo Ananya ko Ananya banate the...tumhare bina bhot ajeeb aur adhura lgta hai....please wapas aa jao dabbu please....mere galti ki mujhe itni badi saza mat do....", controlling her emotions were impossible for her now and she brokedown again

To divert her mind she went to the window of her room, it was almost evening and silence was spread everywhere except her heart which was dying in chaos of unexplainable and incomplete emotions, sitting there she continued writing...

"Inn four months mein bhot kuch badal chuka hai dabbu....jis angry Ananya se tum darte aur ladte the vo ab bilkul bhi angry nahi rah gyi h...kyonki ye anger hi inn sab ki wajah hai....jis Ananya ka room kabhi nakabposh ke sketches se bhara rhta tha vo aaj tumhari belongings aur photos se bhara hua hai...kabhi kabhi mom poochti hai ki ye ladka kaun hai...aur mere paas reply krne ke liye words hi nahi hote....kaise batau ki tum kaun ho....kaha ho...kaise ho..."