Risking Your Life

VII

THIS CHAPTER WILL BE A POV OF COMMANDER.

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It was the next day, I sat in my office as I stared down at the pile of war plans on my desk, all signed by me. 'Commander.'

I sighed under my breath, thinking of what DJ had told me.
He told me that I was distancing apart from [T/N]. Of course...

I didn't mean to, I never meant for me to distance myself from them in the first place, they keep hanging out with Cowboy anyway.I rubbed my forehead, looking at the door after a while. I thought about what I had said over and over.

I slammed my hand down on the table in more frustration. "God...damn it."

I sighed, all my thoughts were about them. All about [T/N]. Each thought was about them...I didn't mean to talk about the war that often, I didn't mean to distance myself. I never meant for any of this to happen. I cared about them, I wanted to care for them more. I wanted to just...love them.

I realized what I thought about, sighing. I had no chance with them, hell, I even told them they should die!Of course, I had no chance with them!

Hell, they would've just rejected you even if you tried. I hit my head on the table, keeping it there as I looked at the door again.

I've gotta go see them...

I got up from my desk, heading off to the Medic's Office. I knew they were still there, and I wanted to tell them something. I wanted to tell them something about what I felt about them.I opened the Medic's Office door, Medic wasn't even in there.

"Probably out getting supplies or something..."I thought.

I walked over to [T/N], looking at them with a nervous expression. Before they could speak, I said what I wanted to.

"After battle this week with The Fallen King, please just head to me instead of leaving instantly. I have to tell you...something..." I was nervous, I was already getting anxious just from this.

They nodded a couple of times. "Okay...I'll do that."

I could tell they were nervous as well, as I nodded. "Thank you." I smiled, heading out of the Medic's Office. God, that made me more nervous than before. The next battle is sooner than I thought...Ugh, why did I have to say that?

I sighed and headed back to my office, looking back occasionally. Nothing new, it was just the same. I entered my office, sitting down and rubbing my face.


It has to happen sooner or later, Commander...

...I loved them. I wasn't going to waste my chances...