RAVEN : A MARVEL STORY

Chapter 6: confused emotions

⚠️⚠️⚠️substance misuse/ ED/mention of SH⚠️⚠️⚠️

*you finish the rest of the bottle and go to put it on the table, however your hand slips and the bottle smashes on the floor. You stare at the glass on the floor tempted to lift a piece to your skin, but then quickly gather all the glass and toss it in the bin. You open your packet of cigarettes and lean out you window watching over the chaos from bellow of the city. You eventually fall asleep around 6am*

*your rudely awakened by your alarm blaring through the room. You dramatically roll over turning it off. You hear footsteps coming from the stairs you make your way to the hall and see the unknown blonde being guided out by Leo as he playfully smacks her ass as she leaves. He turns to see you standing they're with a disgusted face*

Leo- what's your problem slut!
*he barges you out the way making your back hit the wall*

*you just leave for work as you can't put up with it this morning*

*you manage to get some work done and it's about 2:30 and you realised you haven't eat anything yet but your not hungry so you just decide to get a coffee. Entering the kitchen you see Bucky at the table and Sam cooking noodles*

Sam- hey munchkin what you up to?
Y/n- nothing much got thirsty so came to get some coffee.
Sam- you hungry I'm making noodles and there's plenty here!
Bucky- you just said they're wasn't enough for me!!
*you laugh*
Y/n- no I'm fine thanks
Bucky- you haven't eat anything all day though?
Y/n- oh I'm just not hungry *you smile shyly*
Bucky- whatever
Y/n- anyway I better get back to work see you later sam!

*after finishing your work you go to the meeting room where Tony is talking about the next mission*

Tony- so everyone understand the plan?
Y/n- so we just go kill these robot things and that's it ?
Bucky- you make it sound easy
Y/n- probably cause it is
Bucky- it's not that easy
Y/n- maybe not for you
Bucky- god your a pain in my as-
Steve- language!
Nat- will you both stop arguing and focus
Bucky- she started it!
Y/n- what are you 2?
Bucky- just shut up
Y/n- you!
Bucky- god how can people stand you
Y/n- because I'm a fun person your just a dick and don't know what fun is
Bucky- what did you just call me
Y/n- you heard asshole
Bucky- I swear to go-
Y/n- what
Bucky- watch it
Y/n- I'm so scared. Bite me Barnes
Bucky- god do you ever stop talk-
Clint- GUYS!!

Clint- anyway yes got it tony. Everyone meet here in an hour.

Tony- also Tomorrow party at 7:00 i expect everyone's presence, that includes you to Bucky
Y/n- *slightly laughs*

Steve- oh y/n! You should bring your boyfriend we would all love to meet him!
*you gulp and feel an overwhelming feeling of nausea and you instantly become pale*
Y/n- Oh eh I'll ask him. I don't think he will be able to come tho-
Tony- no need to ask I already sent the invite and he's accepted
*you feel even more nauseated*
Y/n- one minute I need to go to the toilet
*you quickly rush to the toilet barely shutting the door before you throw up, unknown to you buck is just outside as he noticed how pale you got and was concerned. He knocks on the door*

Bucky- em ... you alright in they're
*you throw up again*
Y/n- I'm fine... now piss off
Bucky- you don't sound it you sure your ok
*he doesn't hear a response. The toilet flushes and the door unlocks and you push past him. He grabs your arm lightly to stop you*

Bucky- hey stop! What's going on ?
Y/n- what's going on? Bucky what is wrong with you! Huh! You act all nice and like you care then your telling me that I'm such an inconvenience and are just an arrogant asshole towards me. I don't know how to act around you cause I don't what mood your gonna be in when your with me. Stop messing me around like I'm some puppet !
*buckys speechless*

Bucky- I- I'm sorry I never meant to hurt you
*he stops and sighs*
I -
Y/n- I gotta get ready for the mission
Bucky- are you sure your healthy enough for this?
Y/n- yes as I said I'm fine

*you all go on the mission your all doing great you take out many of the robots and just as your making way back into the jet you feel a little light headed. You slightly lose your balance and catch yourself on Loki's shoulder*

Loki- hey you ok darling?

Y/n- I- uh yeah I

Wanda- y/n you okay you look a bit pale?
*your head begins to spin*
Y/n- yeah I'm fine just tir- *you collapse falling into Loki where him and Bucky catch your body before it hits the ground*

Tony- omg y/n?'

*couple hours later*

*your eyes flutter open trying to adjust to the brightness of the room. You hear familiar voices faintly in the background*

Nat- why do you mean she was sick before we left

Bucky- she was throwing up in the toilet I asked her if she thought she was healthy enough to go on this mission but she was adamant she was

Tony- ok thanks for telling us

Y/n- guy-s

*they all sharply turn to look at you*

Wanda- omg your ok! Thank god!
*she hugs you gently*

Clint- you scared us pumpkin don't do that again!
*he says while hugging you*
Y/n- I'm sorry

Tony- no need to apologise. Can I speak to y/n alone please
*everyone nods then leaves Bucky looks at Tony suspiciously before heading out*

Y/n- what's up?

Tony- well the reason you fainted was from dehydration and malnutrition y/n. You haven't been eating and drinking enough. To be honest me nor any of the team have seen you eat once since you got here.

Y/n- oh Im sorry I will I didn't know it was that serious I just forget sometimes that's all.

Tony- don't be sorry it's ok just keep it in mind and I'll be checking up for progress ok?

Y/n- ok thank you Tony

Tony- no problem*he hugs you*
Tony- now go eat !
*you laugh lightly*