Dying Love (BakuKiriKami) Book One

Welcome To Wonderland (Part One)

((A/N: I'm going to say this right now. I'm sorry....))

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Denki's POV

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I laid there in recovery girl's hospital, my mind was blurry and foggy. Tears slowly trickled down my face, I felt so useless sitting here while my classmates worked hard on training to become a hero. I felt guilty for taking up everyone's time when in the end I was going to die anyway. I looked down and took out my notebook again for the last time.

I was done causing pain to everyone I loved, at least actively.

I turned to a fresh page and began to write. As I did, hot tears rolled down my face. I felt so weak. I felt like I had disappointed everyone I cared about. I took a deep breath before finishing up my letter to Mina, Kirishima, and one for the class as a whole.

Turning my head, I looked to see what time it was, it was 2:15, almost time for class to be over at 3. I took out all the notes I had written and tucked them carefully under my pillow. 

As I looked at the ones I'd written to Kirishima and Bakugou, I felt the flowers piling up in my throat. But instead of coughing, I just held them back and smiled sadly. Tears rolling off my cheeks and onto the notes.

"I'll love you....always and forever..." I murmured ever so softly.

I checked the clock on the wall again and sighed. Only thirty more minutes to do this. 

But...

How would I do this? Cutting? No, too painful. Medicine? Maybe but Recovery girl kept everything under lock and key. My eyes looked up at the ceiling and I smiled softly. 

I always did wonder what it would be like to fly.

I slowly stood and took the IVs out of my arms and slowly made my way out of the nurse's office and down the halls of UA. I took my time, my classmates wouldn't find me in time, I knew that already. 

As I walked through the halls, I thought back to all the memories I had of my friends. I remembered the time when I mouthed off to Bakugou on the school bus. I remembered when Kirishima protected Bakugou from that student during the licensing exams. I remembered when Bakugou had confessed to Kirishima. I remembered when Sero had comforted me when I came out to my parents as pansexual. I remembered when I had first told Mina I was interested in cross-dressing.

She had been so happy.

They had all been my best friends.

They had all been there for me.

I loved them so much.

I wanted to end it all, and I wasn't sad about that. What I was sad about, is that I would never see their smiles ever again.

I would never again see the way Mina's eyes lit up when she talked about Uraraka and Tsu.

I would never again feel Sero's warm and protecting arms as I cried into him after a rough day at home.

I would never again hear Kirishima's contagious laughter and his smooth loving voice.

I would never again be there to hear Bakugou call me his nicknames.

I would never be there to see my class laugh at my antics again.

The tears were flowing down my face at this point, but I reached the roof top without any trouble.