words // jikook

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"J-Jimin-"

I turned around, standing up. My eyes landed on you and as soon as they did, my heart broke.

You were standing at the edge of the bed, your face wiped off of all emotion.

"Don't say things like that, Jungkook. Don't lie."

Your quiet whispers echoed through the room and the question left me with a statued tongue as melancholy filled me to the brim.

I couldn't bring myself to say anything.

"You could never only be for me, could you?"

Your voice was soft and tauntingly hurt, cracking my heart deep in its core.

I still couldn't speak, it's like I was paralyzed.

"You won't even defend yourself?"

Your eyes lost more hope as they looked up at me, panic creeping into my insides.

I was so fucking stupid.

"Is this you choosing her, Jungkook?"

Pretty tears painted your cheeks as they rolled down, my voice still clogged in my throat.

I simply watched as you nodded and wiped away your tears, gathering your stuff while my head spun in all directions, chest constricting painfully.

It felt as though my body was chained and my voice was dried out, my mind unable to control a single muscle as you dressed up in your clothes, leaving mine on the floor. More tears spilled out of your eyes as my own rivered up more.

And throughout the three minutes of silence where you picked your things up, you not once met my eyes, but when you finally did, I felt my heart rip apart, misery filling my bones.

You were still crying, your eyes red and your rosy cheeks stained with tears, that same agonizingly sad smile on your face. The way your eyes glossed with tears because of me made me feel like all my happiness was snatched away, an empty hollow feeling settling in the pit of my stomach.

And just as you were about to turn around, I finally spoke.

"You know I can't stay."

That's not what-

"She has my heart and my word, min."

No, no that's not it. That's-

I said things that I was supposed to say, driven by guilt. I lost myself in the flashbacks of her crying and begging to me, the memories spitting the hurtful words for me.

You sadly chuckled and wiped your tears as you looked at me, your feet taking small steps in my direction. I stayed still until you stood in front of me and got on your tiptoes, your soft lips meeting my cheek. My eyes shut my eyes at the contact, tears cascading down my face. My already shattered world, crashed down even more.

"I know." Your whisper rang in my ear.

I couldn't open my eyes. I couldn't open them just to see your tears again.

"Goodbye, Jungkook. I love you."

And I broke.