They said that time is the ultimate truth-teller and the best healer...
... they are right on the first one, but I cannot say the same for the latter.
"So, you knew? Since when?"
It wasn't a direct confession but enough to prove my suspiscions.
I smiled weakly. "That's all you can say?"
"Yeah." He said as he turned his back on me and started walking away.
I watched his back as he walks away. I kept my mouth shut until he was no longer in my sight. I can't do anything aside from clenching my fist. I was left dumbfounded.
I felt a pang of pain on my chest. Of course, it hurts. Pakiramdam ko ay sasabog na ako sa sobrang sakit. My heart is aching, but not a single tear from my eyes is falling. I felt numb. I felt weak.
I sat on the bench beside me. Everything happened so fast. Parang kahapon lang ay maayos pa ang lahat. Hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit nangyari ang lahat ng ito. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kami humantong sa ganitong sitwasyon. Hindi ko alam...
Tumayo ako at nagdesisyon na sundan si Adi. Sigurado akong hindi pa siya nakakalayo kaya't binilisan ko ang pagkilos. Mula sa paglalakad ay unti-unti na akong tumakbo.
I can't let him leave me like this, not when I have so much things to ask him.
I shouted his name when I finally caught up to him. Huminto siya sa paglalakad at nilingon ako. Tinignan niya ako ng may halong gulat at pagtataka.
"Selene? Ano na naman?" He asked in a cold tone.
Huminga ako nang malalim at ipinikit sandali ang mga mata. Nang dumilat ako ay tinignan ko siya ng matalim.
"Gago ka, talagang iiwan mo na ako?" I asked. "Hindi mo man lang ba tatanungin kung paano ko nalaman?"
Kumunot ang kanyang noo at napapikit nang mariin. Na para bang nahihirapan siyang sagutin ako. Na para bang nasasaktan siya sa tanong ko.
"I have to." He said, almost whispering.
Umiling-iling ako. "No. Hindi pwede."
He sighed. "Selene, please."
"Bakit ba, Adi? We can sort this out together! Please, don't give up on us." I pleaded.
I closed our remaining distance and hugged him tight. Praying that he would feel the pain I am going through right now.
He cursed but I felt him hugging me back. For a second, I feel happy. I feel like he finally understood what I'm saying.
But all of that was only for a brief moment. He broke the hug and gently pushed me away from him. I stiffened at his move.
"I'm sorry, Selene. It will be okay..."
Nang marinig ko ang kaniyang sinabi ay nag-unahan sa pagtulo ang mga luha ko.
I felt the pain on my chest again. Naghalu-halo na ang nararamdaman ko. Galit, kalungkutan at sakit. Sa puntong ito ay sumabog na ako.
"What the fuck are you saying, Adi?! What will be okay?! Sa tingin mo ba mangyayari 'yon?!" I shouted in anger.
Lumapit siya sa akin at pinunasan ang luha ko gamit ang mga daliri. Pagkatapos ay unti-unti niyang nilapit ang mukha sa aking noo.
I closed my eyes while my tears is still falling. He kissed my forehead and then he lowered his face to plant a kiss my lips.
A goodbye kiss, perhaps.
I opened my eyes when I felt him move away from me. He looked at me and smiled.
"Everything. Everything will be okay, in time."
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