Between Us

Part 5

Yixing thought that after that night, maybe the other would distance himself from him, but that was not the case. Junmyeon was stealing glances and he could feel his eyes following him in the dance room. He was practicing and the other was watching something in his phone, not that he was paying attention on what was playing, he was biting his nails and looking at the dancing form of Yixing.

Their eyes met through the mirror and then there was a stare-down. Junmyeon's eyes did not move and neither his. Yixing was getting out of breath, with dancing and that un-named tension between him and Junmyeon.

"Hyung"

And Jongin calling for Junmyeon broke the spell, Yixing could breath again, and maybe, just maybe other was in the same condition as him, He thought.

"I'm hungry, are you coming with me to eat?"

Jongin asked and Junmyeon nodded and walked out with the younger giving last glance to Yixing.

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They were getting ready backstage for The Lost Planet. Their first concert together. Junmyeon looked nervous and everyone was saying motivational things to him to help him out, make him loose tension, not like they were not nervous. But Did not want to show him.

"Hey"

Yixing walked towards him, making other look at him, he greeted.

"Hey"

Junmyeon said, with a nod. It was awkward.

"Everyone is nervous and that is okay. It's normal. We have practiced and we have to follow it. It will be okay, you see, everyone is here. You are not alone. We are together in this"

Yixing said, eyes locking the other in them, and Junmyeon nodded, slow and understandingly. Then, there was a smile, and finger brushed and that was it, before they were called to get in line to get to the stage.

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Sometimes there were not a word from each other, sometimes there were kisses and sometimes just deep talks, but never, they never talked about the kisses, or whatever it was between them. They never tried to touch the idea, the arrangement, or whatever that was, they had no name for it and either of them were not understanding what was that happening to them.

Yixing did not know what was the other thinking. But it never went beyond the kisses, so that was it, and he did not know what he wanted from the other. He started to keep himself more busy than he already was. Started learning musical instrument, started writing lyrics, composing and perfecting his dance, and so on.

It was not easy to control eyes, when it came to Junmyeon, Yixing found that about himself, fast. His eyes tended to follow the other, while not really thinking anything, just looking, observing ... he was so aware of the the other in his surroundings that he started to fear that. But whenever he met Junmyeon's eyes, he felt he was not the only one going through that. And that kind of calmed him.

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"Hello"

Yixing didn't have to look up to know who it was. He was aware enough of the other, he knew. Chanyeol and him were practicing the guitar, in the practice room, while Junmyeon, Baekhyun and Xiumin were dance practicing.

"Where's the others?"

Chanyeol asked, looking around, while Yixing was tuning the - already tuned -  guitar.

"They went to grab something to eat."

Junmyeon answered and Chanyeol stood up, quickly, with a pretentious anger he said:

"What? Without me?"

And walked out stomping. In any circumstances Yixing would have heard Junmyeon laugh at these antiques of Chanyeol. But he could feel tension building in between them. Junmyeon's aura was desperate and no one of them was talking.

It was hard to speak with Junmeyon in any situation, let alone in-the-desperate-to-touch kind of situation. He looked at the head of the other, trying to get a look of his face, as he was led to somewhere by the other.

Junmyeon always looks at him, a longer take of the features and emotions, if the other really wanted or not wanted to kiss. Always taking gentle steps, so he knew beforehand that the other was in it too. That he was not forcing the other to do something he didn't want.

And Yixing, being fully aware of this, answers with a gentle touch of hand on other's cheek, caressing and leaning, closing the gap. So close, yet having no idea, how far they really were away from each other.