My View (twilight fan-fic)

Begining

I climbed the tree and laid there looking at the  stars, only thing that never changes is the stars. My only companion through it all. I felt my stomach rumble so hard and loud it was painful. How long has it been since i ate? 3 months?

I was so tempted as always too hunt....too feel the blood settle in my stomach. Just too give in...too  let  the taste satisfy me.

I shook my head violently trying too escape the hideous thought. I wouldn't  hurt anyone like that. I wouldn't let myself no matter how thirsty i was. My stomach growled again so i scaled down the tree  and started running looking for a source of food, like a berry bush or something. ANYTHING!

After about 45 minuets  of running i stopped at a lake. I was going too have too start a fire and boil some water...i was thirsty. Blood wise, and just natural thirsty. 

I boiled some water, so i didn't get sick. Even though, who really cares if  i get sick and die? Makes things easier. So many time's i have thought about death and how it is most likely better  then living. I've tried starving myself, that obviously didn't  work.

Every time I got close too what i want something  stops me, no matter how much i want too end my life i just can't. Something unknown is keeping  me too this planet. What? I have no clue.

 I looked at the sky  through  the trees, it was becoming even darker and colder. I wrapped my arms around myself feeling completely stupid and feeble. Not for the last time, i wished for a warm and cozy bed with a loving and caring family. I felt a tear go down my face at the thought of the impossible.  I'm an idiot half vampire orphan. I'll never be anything more then a pathetic little orphan with no life.

 I was starting too shiver violently and i decided too climb a tree for the night. I started scaling a tree and attempted too get comfortable. I cried my way into a restless sleep. 

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I was running through the forest, I felt out of breath and dizzy, things...no, people were floating around me. Vampires, with bright gold eyes. They were everywhere no  matter how far i ran. I didn't feel threatened, i felt...different. Like i  almost belonged. I stopped without meaning too. I wasn't in control of my  body,  i wasn't in control of anyone or anything.

I then saw a boy, half vampire like me. Pure blue eyes, icy blue that stood out like crazy. His eyes were wide staring at  me, his blond hair tousled in the wind and fell in his eyes just the right way. A tight fitting black  shirt that you could totally see his six pack! He  was also wearing really nice jeans.  His arm outstretched too me, and more then anything  i wanted too take his hand. 

I could just imagine how SOFT it would feel! Why can't i take his hand? I want too. I was just about too outstrech my hand too his when i felt him slipping away...farther and farther out of ,my reach. Everyone was dissapearing and my eyes opened up too see me in the same place, in the middle of the woods freezing  cold.

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