Dear Diary,
Well the last time i wrote i never explained myself. My name is Jeshell but I'd rather be called Alex. I'm 14 years old, i have short black hair, I have a tan body and I'm 5'8 and some people tell me I'm very pretty but others make fun of me.
I was never really liked all through out elementary school since i moved to surprise when i was 9. I made a few friends when i moved to surprise. I was always picked on and was never really smart, but I got through it and made some really nice friends. When everyone found out both my parents died they all treated me differently. Some of the people thought I was lying and said I was just trying to get attention. Which i don't see why anyone would lie about their parents death.
I still never found the right person to talk to all of this about. I met a really nice teacher who helped me through everything. I made some friends that i could be myself around and I still miss all my friends from 3rd and 4th grade no one can replace them they understood me the best. Last year i started to cut myself because i was depressed. My friend James told a teacher and she talked to me about it and told my sister and brother in law that i had started to hurt myself. My family all just played it off like nothing really happened. I use to be made fun of by boys but since most of the guys that made fun of me were older than me and knew one of my brothers they stopped and it helped my confidnce. I love my brothers half to death. Now its my freshmen year in high school. I found someone that can someone relate to me just a little bit. I see what people mean now when they say im ugly i understand. Im not really ugly people just hate me and i totally understand i'm a person everyone loves.
It feels really nice to get all of this off my chest. I've met this guy who makes me feel like im not worthless anymore. He's really sweet and makes me think maybe i will live a happy life again. I've also met a girl who understands me more than any of my friends. She compares to be and gets me more than my best friend that i've been friends with since forever. I'm really happy I met her, but sometimes I wish i met her awhile ago life would of been alot better. Well i love them both and they make me understand life more.
Love,
Jeshell
