Nothing Makes Sense

Chapter !

1.

It was anything but a happy day for her. First, she got evicted, now her boss tells her she has to be laid off due to budget cuts. She had chosen the wrong day to skip breakfast.

" Am sorry Kamice there is nothing more I can do for you. My hands are tied when it comes to these decisions" Larry said as he tapped her shoulders in a way that seemed as if he was comforting her but he liked nothing else than to fire her. So of course it didn't work, she was now homeless and jobless. Her world was turned upside down in just one day.

So what did she do ? one might think to cry others suicide, oh no not Kamice. She was far from any of those options. And so she drank.

Alcohol coursing through her veins as if they were her blood cells, as the music began to slowly fade out into the background.

It was just her and the beer she had been nursing after the buzz from the last five kicked in. Nothing was worth more than that one moment of serendipity that was a sham. But hey fake is good nowadays apparently so that one brief minute of peace that never really existed was good right?

"Hey !"

"Hey! Don't you hear me talking to you ?" What is that annoying voice doing in my head? she thought as the alcohol blurred out the fact that she was standing in her local bar and there was a party happening in the background.

"Kamice?"

That annoying voice sounds familiar, kinda like a bee or mosquito following me around all day. Annoying. Who does that remind me of again? Took a while but it dawned on her, it was none other than Favel, her former 'benefit' guy.

The relationship had no meaning at first as it started as a simple interaction between two new friends, that then developed into sex in the middle of the hallway of her apartment. She can say it was good but not golden.

Is this some illusion? I have to stop drinking so much, it's wrecking my brain to the point that I am beginning to think about that asshole who screwed up my life a couple of weeks ago. Who knew that a computer whizz could have even had two girls at the same time? A wistful frown spread on her face as she thought back on that painful day when she found out that he had actually had a girlfriend who he had truly cared about. She on the other hand, even though he cared it was not so much to leave his years of relationship for.

She spun around to greet him but immediately regretted that choice as her world began to get all dizzy.

"Hey are you ok ?" he asked as if he was genuinely concerned but she honestly didn't think he was.

"Yea, am great. How're things with you? Did you get back together with Lisa ?" from the frown that was plastered on his face she knew that was a no. And she gets why that amazing girl wouldn't want to stay in a relationship with him after finding out he cheated on her again for the second time after she forgave him. Kamicee honestly admits to herself that it wasn't entirely all his fault as she knew about Lisa and how he felt for her but he played her off as his best friend so what was she to do when she needed comfort and he was offering her his body. Nothing that she should have done but she didn't. She was curled up in his arms every Friday night on his couch or some nights under him on top of the silk sheets that were sprawled out on his bed.

"Let's not talk about her"

She realized after six beers he seemed attractive, so much that the moment he attached his lips to hers, his lips were moving aggressively against hers; she never resisted.

She pulled back for some air as it's been a while since she was kissed like that, then it hit her like a ton of bricks. What the hell was she doing with this guy? He wasn't someone she wanted to mix herself up with again. She had learned her lesson and wouldn't make that choice again, well she hoped she wouldn't but with that much alcohol in her system, anything seems probable at that moment.