I'm bored.No one near me just my voice to hear.The silence is like a oasis in this noisy world but the silence is my pain ,my enemy.
Why people love silence?They say is so calming to sit in silence watching as the time passes by . I wish to stop it.
I think im going crazy.No one ,absolutely no one hears me or looks at me.They just walk away.At this point my only friend is my reflection.He smiles at me ,he listens me.
The only thing I don't like about my new friend is his sad eyes .His eyes just stare into my soul like he understands me.What does he know about me?
I hate it. I hate it I hate it Ihate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it i hate it i hate .
He looks so sad .I can't help him.I can't. The mirror is the only thing keeping us apart .
How can i help ? It just hurts. My head ,body,heart, everything aches.
I don't want to see him anymore.I just want to be alone . I previously hated it but now I want to be alone .
He keeps begging me to help him .I don't know how .Please tell him to shut up . I tried saying that to him but he looked angry. Thats a new expresion . I like it .
A rational person would say just to cover the mirror but I tried .I can't escape him . He is everywhere, in the window , in my spoon ,in the dark tv .
I hate him , his eyes ,mouth brows everything. I hate that he is making such an filthy expresion .
I especially loathe the fact he is looking exactly like me . Can you believe that ?
I can't see him with the blindfold put over my eyes.
I'm alone again . I know i said that i want to be alone but with the blindfold it's so dark .I was never scared of dark before but now the dark seems so big .
I still hear the pleading of help . I don't know if its his voice or mine , it doesn't matter at this point .
What should i do?What did i did to deserve this torture? Was i bad in my previous life ? Is this karma ?
He didn't look this sad when we lived with mom . We promised to call her every week. I just forgot to do it.
Nobody answers the calls. Not even mom . Is she mad ?
When i think about about mom he seems sadder than usual. I haye it even more .
Will he be the only person i can talk to for the rest of my life ?
I want to see him angry again.That would help.
I wish to exterminate that pitiful expresion from his ugly face. I would do anything.
I still have the blindfold on .I want to untie it but I'm scared of him.
Does he hates me too ?
I hope so ,it would be truly pathetic if he didn't hate me. All the time i looked at him in the mirror with disgust will be only and act from me where I didn't acted humanly acceptable. That's why I wish he hates me too.
My will cracked,the blindfold i put once over my eyes now is sitting in my hand . I didn't dared to avert my on the mirror.
It's quiet ,unusually quiet .There is no scream.
