Jikook (one shots, sad endings version)

*~Confession~*

Jungkook was really nervous. Looking at himself in the mirror, he started mumbling his speech he would say later.

He cursed loudly when he looked at his watch before going downstairs to put on his shoes and his coat as the weather was still cool.

He ran down the street a few minutes when finally he caught a small frame sat on a bench. The other boy was looking down at his phone pouting slightly with a scarf around his neck. Jungkook's heart rate increased when the smaller looked up. When they made eye contact, the blond boy smiled so big his eyes became a croissant shape.

"Hi Jungkookie how are you ?", he asked softly when the latter was close enough he could hear.

"Hi Jiminie I'm good and you ?" He cringed at how awkward he was being.

"I'm always good when I'm with you", he replied oblivious of the other turmoil. "Hey are you okay ? You're shaking are you cold ? Wait I'll give you my scarf-"

"No it's okay Jimin thank you", he quickly stop the smaller from removing his scarf. He was not cold but really nervous and being in front of his friend made it more real. He practiced this moment multiple times...he could do it. "Umm...I actually called you so that I could talk to you about something...", he scratched his neck nervously not daring to meet his stare.

"Oh sure. Do you maybe want to sit on a bench in this park over there ?", the smaller pointed towards the little area with children's play.

"Umm yeah thank you", he replied lamely.

After a little walk in silence, they both sat on a bench close to a big tree.

"Jungkookie are you okay ? You're worrying me", he frowned cutely.

"Yeah. Yeah sorry I'm just-I'm just a little bit nervous that's all", he looked down at his lap so he could gathered his thoughts. "Umm so...fuck that's so awkward I'm sorry", he shook his head not knowing how to start even though he had practiced for long hours in front of his mirror. Being in the real situation was far from easy.

"Your hands are shaking. Let me hold them to warm them up". He did not know but by this gesture he made it even more difficult for Jungkook to talk. After breathing deeply, he looked up only to see Jimin already staring. He could feel his heart beating in his throat.

"So...it's been a year and a half since we met and I wanted to tell you how grateful I am to have you in my life", Jimin blushed lightly because of the unexpected statement. His intense stare made Jungkook stuttering his next words. "Umm-I-I don't know how I was doing before when I didn't know you. You're just so caring, so patient, so kind to everyone even people who doesn't deserve it and oh my god it's harder than I thought", the smaller squeezed his bigger hands to give his friend his support.

"Hey it's okay take all the time you need", Jimin caressed his cold hands with his thumbs. Even though he was confused by the sudden speech, he continued to listen every words coming from his friend's mouth.

"Jimin...", looking up at his friend, he sighed shakily. "I-I...I love you", he whispered finally.

Jungkook did not know what to expect but when he felt his hands getting cold again as his friend released his hold on them, he breathed shakily.

"As a friend. Right ?"

The taller opened his mouth only to close it right after. What was happening ?

"I-No. I love you Jimin as I'm in love with you...", he confessed with a little uncertain voice. The situation made him vulnerable and the look of the smaller made him feel little.

"I'm sorry", and this was what made the tears fall. Jungkook quickly dried them with his sleeve but it was too late. Jimin noticed it. "Jungkook I'm sorry".

"No don't be. It's okay it's not that deep. It's alright. You don't have to feel the same way. I mean how stupid I was to even put than on you. It's my fault if I couldn't hold back my feelings", he mumbled quickly stumbling on his words, tears now falling freely down his face. He was moving his arms in the air not being able to stay still on the bench. He struggled to speak as he chocked on his next words "I'm so so-sorry Jimin".

The smaller felt guilty and did not know if it was appropriate to touch him when he was the reason of the broken state of his friend. But even if it was, he was still his friend and he could not watch him sobbing without doing anything. So by instinct, he grabbed Jungkook's arms which kept moving and pulled them to hug him tightly. He could feel his frame shaking from the sobs. He tried to calm his friend by caressing his back and he could feel him calming down. Only hiccup sounds were coming from him now.

"Jungkookie...", he received a little sob at the nickname, "I'm so sorry. I wish I could love you back but...right now is just not the right time", he pulled back from the hug to cup his friend's wet cheeks. "You know I love you. But-"

"As a friend", he finished the sentence not staring back at, he was sure of, worried eyes. He did not want to receive pity.

"Yeah...As a friend", he repeated quietly.

Jungkook only nodded before removing the smaller hands from his face.

"Jungkook I'm sorry-"

"Please stop apologizing", he finally stared back with an emotion Jimin did not like. He became almost...cold.

"Yeah sorry-fuck sorry-no that's not-", Jimin stuttered as he kept apologizing.

"I should go", when he stood up, Jungkook felt a hand grabbing his sleeve which made him look down.

"Jungkookie...I don't want to loose you...please", he said sadly.

The taller sighed before removing his arm from the other's hold. "I need a little bit of space...and time. I'm sorry but I don't know if I can act as your friend now that I confessed. It just-it just doesn't feel right I'm sorry", with that, he turned around to leave.

Jimin yelling his name broke his heart once again but he couldn't turn around. He had to heal and move on. He did not know how long it would take or if he will ever move on but he had to protect his heart from more heartbreak.

When he came back home, he broke down in his mom's arms.