My son father is a villain

Not a chapter but I just wanna give you a story about my life

Name: jesslyn (fake) 

Old: 17 (fake) 

⚠️These story is real⚠️

So let's go back to when I was 4 years old, my mom and dad used to fight every day and every time, I don't know why they were fighting because I was a kid and when I saw them fighting my grandma always took me away from there and gave me a cake. (this grandmother is mama's mother) and when I knew my mother and father were divorced my grandmother was very sad, and there was a child custody court and my father won it so father had custody of me and my sister, even though they were divorced my father still allowed me met my mom and my grandma too but they always talk about bad things, like mom who always cursing dad and dad too but when i live with dad and his family i'm not happy, i have many younger siblings and i'm the eldest child, i hate all All of my cousins ​​are involved, right, I feel like I'm a helper, I hate everything.

and when i was 8 i knew i tried to stab a knife into my hand i felt like dying but the scar on the knife is still there and i'm so glad i could do that.

When I was 9 years old I tried to kill my male cousins ​​and sell my sister but I didn't do that because I still love them, I tried to be patient from childhood to be a great big brother and I used to be a popular kid and it wasn't because of lies and when i was in grade 4-6 i used to lie and became a class clown, because i wanted attention, and i was known as a love girl, at the age of 10-12 i had 12 ex-boyfriends and i looked good on the outside looks too good and I get used so often right. Back to the state of the house.

When I was 10-11, my father told me what really happened to my father and mother and it turned out that mother cheated on my father, the mother I knew was a kind and friendly person turned out like this and because of that I once at night I tried to take a knife and tried to stab my father but I didn't and I told it to my sister and my sister suggested consulting an online psychologist and I was actually depressed, I didn't believe it took a test to a different psychologist and the results were the same and because of that when I was 11 years old when my sister was in the toilet she was taking a shower I took a knife in my hand and...