The Perks of Being an Oneironaut

Foreword

Hi Learner!

Good Day!

Why am I calling you a learner? Obviously, you must be a student (probably in the near future) trying to make a study in psychology, philosophy, history or any of the fields that touches stuff about dreams and sleep. Of course in our busy life, who will give time and interest to read this account/ notes about my dreams unless you are just bored or curious finding out that such writing in wattpad or social media exists. Anyway thank you and I hope you are having a good Day.

I seldom meet people just like me who experience lucid dreams, sleep paralysis, or astral projections on a regular basis. It is also a bit awful there are few people showing interest in listening to my stories about my dreams. I can't blame them because if I am on their shoes, and I don't really trust a person, why will I spend time listening to his nonsense illusions, who knows he would just be making that up or if it's real, probably just add or subtract in the details.

Well I would try my best to make it as honest as possible. In order to do that, I included codes/names for people who are part of my dreams so that no one will know their real name for their and my own protection. It would make me feel comfortable to write especially even about the awkward, disgusting, or weird stuffs. I am a mathematician in real life and I also use such advantages about my knowledge in numbers, analysis, and microsoft excel. I love Math, so far for me, it does not lie. Numbers and data just reveal themselves in different forms and codes. Still some of my dreams are vague and meaningless but they touched my emotions a lot.

There was a time when I dreamt of accidentally stabbing and killing an unknown mugger, but the problem is that he was still a minor and I regretted that a lot and I accepted my punishment of long time imprisonment. I woke up from that dream crying. I realized that no matter how strong or able to fight I could be, I should avoid violence because murdering someone is so unacceptable not just by the Law but also by the pain of the guilt on depriving someone of life. It is used to be my fantasy of punishing and beating up bullies and criminals but that dream affected me a lot.

I also dream of things, places and people I desire to be with, they appear in my sleep and it was so cool. Sometime I realize I am dreaming but I just enjoyed and wake up with wonderful smile. I also experience sleep paralysis, it was like hell being unable to move or call for help hallucinating on scary stuff but recently, I was able to somehow cope with it. Instead of trying to fight it, I get out of my body for a short time, float in the air, feel the surrounding and take a look outside. Still I eventually decide to go back to my body. Of course, I don't want to leave my body for long. I still want to continue living.

I have been surfing the internet and so also read articles about people being able to remember their dreams and I sometimes able to relate with them. It is cool to share the same experiences with them.

It is year 2021 and I have filled more than 10 notebooks with my writings about my dreams since I started taking notes in my elementary days. I guess I need to share some in the internet. Who knows this would contribute to a good research paper someday.

Goodluck and whoever you are. I love you! J