After the crash and also heal, I noticed something wrong with me. I kept getting memories from it and making me heavy and like I was pacing and couldn't breathe. The other things I been noticed I was down like depression. I didn't felt happy like in use to be. I don't want to tell my boyfriends and I don't plan too. They already worries me to much.
I woke up, I didn't feel like eating or doing anything. I don't want to go to school. But I had too.
At school.
There was one class I had with out Jin, Namjoon, Yoongi, Hobi, Jimin and Taehyung which is PE. I got dress in the PE clothes. I didn't bring KJ today because I'm giving him a vacation.
I got nervous as I saw my other bullys. Jay, Lucas, and Yunho. (Just characters remember that). I was honestly scared. I just stay in back that isn't tell Coach Park told me to be in the front because you know I'm deaf of hard hearing.
We had to play basketball. I love basketball, sometimes I would play with Yoongi a lot because he was a middle school player but don't do it anymore because he play it for fun not as game.
I was in group with those three people. Help me please! I had fun with the other people but afterwards they had plan.
They held me against the locker after changing. "Where's you boyfriends slut!" Jay yelled. "They at their class" I said. "Please let me go!" I cried for help. "Ready guys" the boys look at him and nodded. They started to punch me in the face then my stomach and all over me. "You better not tell anyone and if you do I will kill you!" Jay warn me and they ran.
I immediately collapse on the floor. I couldn't movie. I started crying. Suddenly a voice came in.
"Wow you are really worthless"
"I am?"
"You should just kill yourself already"
"Shut up" I close my eyes. I still hear it over and over again. I kept yelling shut up. I had no choice I got up and ran.
I collapse on the ground, my back was on the white wall. I just cried my heart out.
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(Just imagine there is blood and cuts)
I was in so much pain besides my arms. Oops, I shouldn't said that. I been cutting my arms. They are not going to be happy with me.
"Oh my Kookie!" I heard my name being call. I saw a tall figure and it was Jin. Namjoon and Yoongi was with him.
"Jinnie" I weakly said and held my stomach. "Pain stomach" Jin immediately lift my shirt. I heard gasps.
Jin immediately pick me up. "Get the rest we are going to the nurse!" Jin yelled and ran.
"Oh my child" the nurse, she help Jin place me on the bed. "We need to call help. He could have bleeding inside" the nurse grab the phone and call an ambulance.
I was put on a sketcher. A guy put a breathing mask on me. I felt weak and numb. They took my shirt off and I wide my eyes.
I remember the guy telling Jin that I will have to talk before passing out.
I woke up in different place. I was in the hospital room. I was in a grown, I had BJ (his plush) in my arms. I saw my stuff and then I saw them.
"Oh you're finally awake" Jimin hug tightly and peck my head. "Jimin don't huh him tight" Hobi told him. "How long I was out?" I ask. "Almost three day" Taehyung reply. "I go get a nurse" Namjoon left.
I look at my arms. I were wrap. I noticed my fingers nails are clip. "I'm sorry" I started to cried. "For what?" Yoongi ask. "For everything, I always make you guys worry for me" I cried out. "Oh baby, don't be sorry. We love you so much and we will take care of you no matter what" Jin hug me.
The doctor came. He said he want to talk to me if I'm well and I told I am.
"Do you ever feel down, like feeling sad?" The doctor ask. I nodded. "Okay, do ever feel anxious around things?" He ask. "After the car accident, I been having dreams or flashbacks about them and it make me hard to breathe" I explain. "Okay, do you ever feel hurting yourself? If so how?" The doctor ask. "Yes I hear voices and they tell me what to do. Like cut myself or scratching, etc." I explain. He aske more.
"So Jungkook is diagnosed with depression and anxiety" the doctor told them. "Do you think he do well with medication or therapy?" The doctor ask. "I think therapy" Namjoon answer. "Okay I will sign him up and give paperwork to you, I want Jungkook to spend here for two day" the doctor explain.
For the passed two day.
I been well, not my mental health. I try to throw up because the voice told me I was fat and now I was diagnosed with Bullia.
Jin made sure I eat because he cook for us and he made sure we eat it all. I got to go home though but everything had to change due to my disabilities.
I will have to work from home. Namjoon is also working from home since he is A+ student and he is ahead of everyone.
Next week I start my therapy, Jimin and Taehyung will be going with me.
This is how is going to work. On Monday I will be with Taehyung and Jimin at therapy. Wednesday it will be Yoongi and Hobi. Friday will be Namjoon and Jin. Tuesday and Thursday will be my free time. Saturday and Sunday I go alone with the therapy.
